re-ignited

2009-11-23T20:03:00.106+08:00

A* shares the happy fact that he's back with his girlfriend. Again. After numerous break-and-make-up's.

B* moans to me about how he hates yet misses a stuck-up b*tch (his words) he used to be tight & sweet with.

C* trusts me to keep his recent breakup a secret.

D* thanks me for something he had learned from me, that eventually helped patch things up with his girl.

E* tells me about how he's given up on her, thanks me for "helping" him anyway, and that he will endeavor to look for another girl.

...Etcetera, etcetera, but i'm stopping here.

Today's realization:

that i found it heavily ironic that my guy friends keep coming to me about their love life, even asking for advice... i mean, it's not like i've had tremendous experience or anything. Heck, i'm a member of NBSB. Then again, i've had a number of people tell me that i'm a really good listener, so maybe that's why.

Well, I always try to make it a point to listen to people. You can come to me about anything. I don't promise nor claim to be the "fixer of your problems", I won't interrupt, and I most definitely will not judge, because that's not my job to do.

But I will listen. :)

*Real first name initials have been substituted for. I have these people's trust, and I don't want to lose it.

P.S. I think I keep too many people's secrets. But that's a good thing, right?

...

2009-10-15T22:23:00.004+08:00

“He lay her down and softly pressed his lips against hers, taking the time to memorize its shape. Slowly, he moved down and traced her jawline, until he reached and nuzzled at her ear. All this while her heart started racing, her breathing, heavier. Without hesitation, she pulled his face close back to hers to dissolve in a kiss that lit up a thousand sparks. He brushed his hand over her back and carefully unclasped her bra…”

LOL.

Yes, my PHILIEN prof had the whole class to write a love scene and this was what i eventually came up with.

Her criteria was basically to make her horny.

And then she said that what we write will be an indication of what makes us horny.…Well, i kinda plagiarized on this one — i tried recalling on one of those parts inTwilight which had Bella hyperventilating under Edward...

O.M.G.

My prof will probably kill me for even having read the books. Miss, don’t fail me please??!?

ANYWAY… this isn’t anything explicit so i deemed it safe to post on here. It is required by her anyway. I cannot imagine what shenanigans and other dares she’s planning to get us into (NB: she has this habit of giggling while playfully tapping her fingers together.. x_x)

Not that i’m complaining of her unconventional methods… yet.

A Slip of Happiness

2009-08-11T22:53:00.005+08:00

Today, i woke up at about 7.35am when my class would be at 8am. D: so i just laid there in bed thinking that if could get dressed and all in 5mins, i might still be able to make it to class just 20mins late. Unfortunately while weighing all the pros and cons, i dozed back to sleep. and awoke around 9am, just 30mins before said class would end. oh well -_____-

Sooo i finally just got up, took my time dressing and enjoying my breakfast (which i hardly do since i always rush out the door) and travelled to Vito Cruz (where my school is located) around 10.30am.

And went UKAY-UKAY shopping! \:D/

For those who don't know the term, let's just say it's the Filipino version of thrift stores.

What i bought for just 50 pesos each!

OH BUT HERE'S THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY:

By the time i paid for them, i was already sweating so i thought of cooling down at the SDA library... i saw Matt while going up the steps to the lobby and he was with his two blockmates so he intro'd me to them -- a girl named Jessica and a guy (i forgot what his name is -_-) and so this girl looked at me strangely and said, "your face looks so familiar," i studied hers, and didn't recognize anyone so she asked, "where did you live before here?" "Well, Brunei.." then she goes "OMG *insert tagalog swear words here* we lived in the same building!!!"

i was so dumbfounded by this time, thinking that she must have mistaken me for the wrong person. But suddenly it all fell into place and i practically burst out with surprise along with her too. DUDE, this girl was my long long long long time neighbour-friend several years ago (i was probably 6yrs or younger) back in Brunei!

i was like all "oh, i remember Fiona, and you both have brothers, right? We used to be playmates!" (Fiona and Steven were another pair of siblings back in the day we were all neighbours :D)

We exchanged numbers, and dang, i was so happy for the rest of the day that my classes went by like a blur. i just am glad to have run into her, it's so nice to meet long-time friends. i mean, it's also sooo amazing to think that, after many years when you no longer kept in touch with each other, suddenly find yourselves enrolled in the same college! ahhh!

Alright, time for me to log out. Cheers! :)

This blog is not abandoned.

2009-08-10T16:16:00.004+08:00

Yes, i'm still alive people. I know i really haven't been making any effort to update this blog and there won't be an excuse anymore (yeah, if only an invention of autosynching between our brains and computers existed) but rest assured i am still in the meantime cooking up upcoming photoblogs [even just for myself] to reminisce on the past eventful months.

Also, i've noticed through my super quick bloghopping that some of you have removed my blog from your links. That's okay though, i understand. Re-link me (or my tumblr) if you wish, but i can't promise to update frequently.

On a random note, i get a dose of giggles on my regular checking of this blog's live traffic feed :) i mean, how crazy it is to know that someone came to your blog through googling, for example, "notes for judging a british shorthair cat" orr.... haha. well i lost the link on that one. Still, there's a creepy side; i also found out that someone Yahoo!-searched my full name (see below)

*getting suspicious*

Uhh anyway.

Update school-wise:

i can't believe it's August already! a.k.a. FINALS month. i'm swamped with projects as of now. Pre-enrollment's this week too (also Benilde Week) so this means time to handpick a good sched for my classes next term! (which is, oh, next month already! *sweats) i won't be discussing scheds with any of my friends though, unless they suggest first (like Mario, for taking Basicom together.) i guess i just wanna go with the flow and be surprised with who i'll be with next term; meet new friends, you know? Not just sticking to your old ones like you're blockmates forever (of course this doesn't mean i neglect them, hehe.) Besides, i believe God puts me exactly where He wants me to be. Therefore, i deem it no accident at all to have met and will meet people in my life.

Time goes by so fast. I realized i haven't been gimmicking alot this term, so i plan to squeeze work and play by the time it ends. It is my dear friend Paula's last term here too before she goes to Australia. How we've grown close to each other in just less than a year we both consider a pure gift. i'll be sad to let her go but then again happy that she'll be living out the rest of her life's purpose, starting with Hillsong College in Australia. Wow! Going there used to be my plan if not for Philippines now...

So okay, it looks like i still got lots to do today, so before i procrastinate again... i shall publish this post now.... *click*

Scheds scheds scheds

2009-03-19T21:58:00.005+08:00

It's online pre-enrollment week.

i managed to get a really good sched! Whoo. Studying my flowchart really helped :D

It took me a quite a while to pick the different sections and make sure that they don't collide.

So my classes for next term are basically:

ALGEB-X = College Algebra

INTECOM = Intro to Economics w/ Agrarian Reform & Taxation

PHILOMA = Philosophy of Man

FILIP13 = Retorika

RECONSE = Religion and its Contemporary Search for Self

WORLITE = World Literature

The first three are on MWF 8-11:30am.

The last three are on TTH 1-6pm.

Not bad, eh? ^___^

Bring on SchoolYear 2009-2010!!

i kinda can't wait to bully the freshmen coming in >:D

New term, new campus!

2009-01-12T16:26:00.011+08:00

So far, the 1st week of my 2nd term was getting tedious. Heck, i already wanted the term to end on the 3rd day ;P

Here are my classes:
Dynarel = Dynamics of Religion
Comsk2 = Communication Skills 2 (postrequisite of Comsk1)
Filip12 = Filipino 2 (postrequisite of Filip11)
Insocio = Introduction to Sociology
PE-1 = Physical Education 1
Natsca = Human Factors in Design
Ordev-B = Orientation & Development of Values (postrequisite of Ordev-A)

My schedule is quite loose considering i have half-day both tuesdays and fridays (tues p.m., fri a.m.), quarter day on Monday (?? like um, until 9.10am only!) and almost 5hrs in between classes on thursdays! whew! guess i'll be doing a lot of my "homework" in school now! My wednesdays are packed, with a 3-hour Natsca class (groan...) Another downside is that my earliest class starts at 7am! while my latest class ends at almost 6pm! yikes! rush hour! =_=

The sad thing is that i kinda miss seeing my old classmates; we seriously have different schedules! i think the most i got is with Vince (Dynarel, Comsk2, Ordev-B) then Leon (Dynarel, Ordev-B), Isel (PE-1, Insocio), Inna & the gang (Natsca, Insocio) and with Chris only Ordev-B! i don't really know anyone in my Filip12 class =( and the rest of my non-SDA friends? D: D: i haven't seen them around!

And of course! There's the major shift in learning environments for me and my friends...

VS.

Main Campus VS. SDA Building

We are uber thrilled to be finally taking classes at the SDA (School of Design & Arts) campus building! =D

Let's play a little game of comparing to see why, shall we?

The Hallways:

The Classrooms:

The Canteen/Cafeteria:

...Uhh, i forgot to take pics of the restrooms, LOL! XD

Till here, toodles!~

P.S. i just found out that a local band, Pupil, shot their music video at the SDA building sometime last year (prolly during term break, lol) cuz had i known i would've sneaked in or somethin'. Here's the video:

...they probably chose SDA because of its whiteness. and turned it into a mental asylum. LOL XD

Goodbye, Oh-Eight.

2008-12-31T15:06:00.004+08:00

Looking back throughout the year, i can't help but get a tad bit emotional. Not oh-i-wanna-cut-myself emotional, but the positive one.

I just really can't express how absolutely GRATEFUL i am... from the beginning of this year thinking i'd do my 'O' levels, to the unexpected drop-out soon after and just the whole sudden turn of events mid-year... it was a bittersweet memory. i took the time to appreciate everyone and everything - a couple of months is good enough - so i wouldn't leave too hard-hearted... shifting from small town to big city life.. wow... i looked into the bright side so i would get excited as well... then applying for college... i so remember cramming in for the entrance exam... lol... but all went perfectly smooth and i got in, i guess, my "dream" college here in Philly (i've considered Asia Pacific College... but nothin' beats DLS-CSB now that i'm there! XD) i've met great people, with whom i am continually amazed by because every single thing or detail or experience that happens let me realize that it was NO COINCIDENCE at all... the classes that i got in, and everything that came with it... it's just no frickin' accident!!! and i am soo blown away by that fact!! i thank God because He continually opens my eyes to those little things, that it's His way of telling me, my moving and starting college was no mistake, and it's all in His plan for my life... certain people i've met confirmed that, and i am just soo excited for whatever's ahead!

Sure, nothing superly humongous has happened in the past term... yet ;) i definitely had heartaches during times i was very low, and cried more times than i can count... but i have HOPE to hold on to... i'm safe in my Father's arms, no matter how many times i've fallen, no matter how many times i've let Him down... or neglected Him. God's always there, even though i can't feel Him, but i always know He listens.

and i believe everything happens for a reason.

That said, i'm ready for two thousand nine, baby.

Oh-Nine, you're mine!!!

Wala ng Takipsilim!!

2008-12-29T18:12:00.006+08:00

Thank God that it was just a HOAX.

Whew!

Filipino Twilighters can breathe now.~

***If you've no idea what i'm talkin' about, READ THIS ARTICLE. My bro showed it to me... i totally freaked, of course. To quote:

"...if there is one country in the world that has a terrible reputation for ripping off huge moneymakers and making cheap remakes of hollywood blockbusters, it would have to be the Philippines."

"will someone hand me the sick bucket please? Pinoy tv already ruined Gossip Girl by creating Lipgloss. They shouldn't even think of destroying twilight too. NO. NO. NOOOOOOOO! Even the book's move adaptation din't do so great, what makes them think they can pull it off as a tv series? ambitious much?"

Haha. I'm not tryna degrade my own race but things like this just annoys me
to no end. i guess you can say that i'm passionate for cinema, especially when Digital Filmmaking happens to be my 2nd choice for a major. I remember last month when i went to this Filmmakers' Forum at school with Vince, and we were talking about how cheap most Filipino movies are. Especially those superhero movies...

(mocking)
Vince: GAGAMBOY!
me: LASTIKMAN!

Lol. We are just not impressed. Like if it's gonna turn out crap, why do they even bother? I mean C'MON! What about those romantic comedy movies that come out every year, that has the same bland storyline of two lovers in a city abroad..? All the same, just different countries picked for filming location. lol. This year was GREECE. Haha! Pfft~

Enough ranting for now. Toodles!~ =)

Pffft~

2008-11-22T00:34:00.005+08:00

Who knew doing pre-enrollment can be tricky....

"Conflict in selected schedule. Please try again."

!!!

...Eyes that need to deviate from the screen.

2008-10-02T21:49:00.006+08:00

Eh, only had one class today (which was PoliGov... survived yet again! XD) and there really was no reason for me to stay back and hang out in school after that except in the library and stuff. So i went straight home, but not before i accompanied Isel to the internet shop for awhile (her internet at home's not working).

Then, of course, turning on the laptop when i got home, i got caught up browsing through galleries (looking for Code Geass' Kallen Black Knight outfit -- that i'll be wearing in cosplay) in DeviantArt and somehow ended up doing this:

Stock image by sugargrl14 =)

View my DeviantArt. it's been recently updated & more deviations will come regularly!

Hehe well, it's actually time for me to do my project now, and 2 frickin' essays to write, all of which i would've done had i not got carried away by manipulating that photo =_= (oh, and looking for Silent Hill psp cheats and walk-throughs among Facebook-ing as well!)

Seriously need to dodge all these distractions!!

TTYL.

yeahh, mannn!

2008-09-23T19:25:00.004+08:00

3 words:

COLLEGE is AWESOME.

XD!!!

Charmaigne was right:
"...hurry up and finish form 5 so you can go to college!"

Paid to Play.

2008-06-06T11:12:00.004+08:00

Since I stopped going to school last month, i've been slacking like a guy who got fired from his factory job. i've been sleeping late and waking up late, that my mom (and ptr ramesh too) insist that i start helping out at my church's office/recreation centre in Wisma Yakin. i agreed happily. Nothin' better than doing what i liked doing and being paid for it.

I started on the 19th. Got picked up by Mag to the office. Church laptop wasn't with me, so i had to wait for pastor to deliver it. i played with these binder clips while waiting.

Anyhoo, my first assignment was to make a collage of pictures of all the stuff we did like the visits to SMARTER Org. (a school for autistic children), and the Old Folks' Home. Oh and not forgetting our contribution of refreshments to the students during last year's His Majesty's birthday celebration.

Ugh, i'll have to stop here. Can't even find the rest of the pics...

Something Smells Fishyy

2008-05-20T13:18:00.005+08:00

"Good friends are hard to fish out... I'm glad i caught you!!
So stay nice or else... I'll fry you!!"

Hahah... I was looking thru my txt files and found this chat convo i had with a friend about a year ago... it was when i was home alone with mom leaving me the responsibility of frying fish (which was unfortunately my first time -.-) so i consulted the help of Nosa through chatting...

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Hannah: it doesnt smell like fried fish
Nosa: how does it smeel like
Hannah: errr... fish??
Nosa: errr.ok
Nosa: hey u dere
Hannah: yep
Hannah: no ones gonna eat my fish!
Nosa: don't cry
Hannah: can u do me a favor n poke osaze for me
Nosa: i'm sure its not dat bad
Nosa: ok
Hannah: ehehe
Nosa: sure my plesure]
Nosa: i've poked her
Hannah: ahahaha
Hannah: thnx
Hannah: its looking better now
Nosa: u can thank me la8ter
Hannah: but most of them r decapitated
Nosa: ok but see it turned out fine
Hannah: eheehe
Nosa: lol
Nosa: u noe i'm talking to 2 people
Hannah: n their body parts r everywhere
Nosa: very funny
Hannah: ahahahah
Nosa: muahhahaha
Hannah: seriously its gonna be hard to eat the fish
Nosa: have u tried it
Hannah: nah never!
Nosa: a good cook always tries her creation be4 she gives it to others
Hannah: wow thts sounds so philosophical
Hannah: but nahh
Nosa: u should be selfless lay ur life down for others
Nosa: so if u die after eating it u'll noe u did a good thing
Nosa: for ur family
Nosa: and humanity
Hannah: AHAHAHAHAHAA
Hannah: THANKS!

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Betcha wanted to know what happened when mom came home...
well let me just say that we had something else for dinner ;p

The Dream Ascends...

2008-05-13T23:56:00.008+08:00

The Expression Mega Concert was awesome last sunday night. But if you ask me, I think I still prefer the previous one in 2006. I dunno... maybe it had something to do with the venue. The first two mega concerts were held in the Empire theater, but this year in the International Convention Center (or ICC) to accommodate a larger audience. But it still isn't half as pretty as the Empire Theater's ^___^ so yeah....

Much of the performances were to promote the founder (and my first ever piano teacher back when I was 7), Lily Chiam's, debut album :) The songs were beautiful and she specially imported a singer from India to sing a few of her songs (since, i heard, the rest of her album songs are simply instrumentals) while she performed on the grand piano. Her album's producer, Richard Fowler, also sang and according to Sumi he was the same guy who also lent his voice to the album :)

I haven't gotten her album yet (which btw is entitled "Together") for "lack of financial status" (Faris' words.) but I plan to soon and already asked tchr. Sheila to get it for me since they (the Expression teachers) get discounts.

I saw the album out in the shops already not too long ago. Here's one I saw at the new CD shop in Jln. Pretty:

Lily Chiam's debut album Together in stores

I'm proud of her ;)

Will the grass be greener?

2008-04-22T13:40:00.001+08:00

I'm looking on the bright side...

Boom...

2008-04-19T22:31:00.001+08:00

It's been a week since the bomb was dropped. Oh well... i have to get used to the idea of it.

But the following keeps replaying over and over again in my head!!!........

I won't be in the Class of 2008 in the school yearbook!

I won't have a proper graduation!

I won't be able to go to our graduating prom!

I won't be spending my last Christmas here!!

nyaaarghghh.....

I haven't exactly told anyone yet...

Pink Slip?

2008-04-02T20:47:00.003+08:00

Just dropping by to let yall know, i doubt if i can keep up with this blogging scene. Unlike my early days of (daily!) blogging, i'm now VERY RARELY bored, but always up and about. So okay, for one thing when i have the free time, i'd rather do more "productive" stuff. i have lots of ideas, thoughts, randomness etc etc waiting to be splurged out (always in my head), but the problem is that i am at most too lazy to put fingers to keys to type it up!

No, i am NOT leaving the Blogosphere and closing down this blog (how could i? i typed my life here since i was 12), i will still try my best to blog, at least once a week... ;)

! Word Play !

2008-03-27T16:53:00.010+08:00

It all started with "Waiter! Foon and spork, please."

LOL. I'm clumsy, and I stumble over words (and letters) a lot. But!! It has been a
good stumble since I have then turned it into a fun little game... try it =) Just pick two
seemingly relational words and exchange their frontmost letters. Sometimes you
may have to move the first two (or three) letters such that it would be
"Gry and Skound" for "Sky and Ground"
(make use of your knowledge of vowels and consonants!)

Here are a few I've picked up (see if you can get them *wink*) :

fands and heet

shalf and chin

cot and hold

rake and feal

wain rater

honglouse

pewsnaper

dight and lark

powling bins

yew near

tairy fales

chable and thair

smig and ball

woors and dindows

cloor and feiling

dom and mad

dood and frinks

braidsmide.... and a whole plethora of others! =D

Kluck yer Knackles! (crack your knuckles... haha, kind of tricky, complete
w/ Singlish and Cowboy pronunciation/accents)

Blond eyes, Blue hair (okay, that was simply a word exchange...

but I couldn't help myself ;) hehe)

It's sort of like Pig Latin (i love Lig Patin!)

'Til here... Avehay Unfay!

...Have Fun. Duh. ;p

Love, Bannah Hanana (as Osaze Kamikazee calls me ;p)

Crazy Week Part 3

2008-03-03T14:55:00.001+08:00

St. John's first school bazaar...

Faris, Bash, Faiz, Lynz, Shee Wai, Wani and I put up:-

Static Station - a video game stall feat. Guitar Hero, DanceDanceRevolution, and some soccer game which i'm not so sure about haha...
Plus Sarcastic Delight - selling yummy goodies (cupcakes anyone?) baked by Bash, Lynz, Shee Wai and I... and adding in my mom's addictive chocolate cakes too...

My gosh, so crowded

Faiz, yellow balloon creature, Bash

Wani adjusting the dance mats

Don't remember what Ieuan was doing there... O_O

Dance, dance...

I also brought some of my old (but still in good condition!) clothes and other stuff to sell...

Be not deceived, these choco cakes taste like heaven. Goes to show it was a hit when it was sold out!! Told mommy she should've made more....

Kala and I.... she was doing a carwash service with her friends..

Random body painting..

See how much we made! and that's not even the end of the day yet...

WaSheeHa pride... ^___^

Overall, the day event was great... everything was a massive success!!!!!
And our stall bagged the 2nd position in earning the most!! Cash prizes whoooo~

Recent Times...

2008-02-24T22:41:00.009+08:00

Aunt Simone and her family's leaving soon... here are some pics from their last sunday in church:-

Presenting a farewell gift to them... it was a framed photoshop collage courtesy of me! =)

Davy, moi, aunt Simone, Jascinta and her mom, aunty Annie

Yessss, we got Joao to take a photo with us! We didn't even have to chase him around like a farmer chasing his chicken.

Then we took Davy out at night. Well, we never actually planned to go out but just a visit to their house, but he wanted to go out (i think partly because we couldn't decided on which DVD to watch then) so yeah... couldn't think of a good place so we just ended up at Wywy.

Checking out the DVDs and CDs...

Talissa blowing bubbles to Melvin and Jason's delight...

Aww, Joao trying to exercise. hahah :)

The rest of the pics are with aunty Simone. Just realized we didn't take pics at Wywy. Heheheh.

And here are pics from last month's Carshow... I remembered how Nosa's a huge fan of big cars so we scrambled down to the show after church to check out the Hummer ^___^

Nosa: It's gorgeous!!!!

Osaze: It's hideous. It looks like a box. On wheels.

That was hilarious =D

Solo on V-Day

2008-02-14T11:53:00.001+08:00

Or D-day as in "Dooms day" as some might call it. But it can't be all that bad, besides, being single has the privilege of freedom and lots of time for "me" time! So don't be glum on Valentine's... here's a pretty neat excerpt i got from Mirror Mirror by Kara Powell and Kendall Payne for all us singletons:

Romancing yourself

How do you define "romance"? In your mind does it always conjure up images of a boy and a girl? Do you need a guy in your life to have romance? Well, the Oxford Dictionary defines romance as an "atmosphere or tendency characterized by a sense of remoteness from or idealization of everyday life." It defines romantic, "as of, or characterized by... an idealized, sentimental, or fantastic view of reality."

What this should tell you is that every minute of your solitude can be romantic; you don't need to have a boyfriend. Romance is an atmosphere you can live in. It is not the silly sentimentality that most young lovers try to pursue by holding hands or writing little poems or calling each other pet names. It transcends such barriers as physical distance. You can sit alone and gaze at a sunset and feel a deep sense of romance. Most of the time, sharing it only dilutes its power anyway when your partner doesn't regard it with the same respect.

Of course we all long for the day when the second part of the definition comes to fruition. "A prevailing sense of wonder or mysterty surrounding the mutual attraction in a love affair." Finally free to combine the romance or our lives with the romance of his. But if you're not there yet, then don't pretend to be! Live in the now.

Look inside yourself and to God for the fulfillment of all your longings. And be confident that the desire for romance is natural, even more than that; it is wonderful! Only when you learn to find it from within will you feel satisfied when it comes externally.

And here is the author's compilation of her top 10 most romantic things to do by yourself! Let's be encouraged to do all of these as often as we can. Because in the words of Rainer Maria Rilke, "What goes on in your innermost being is worthy of your whole love."

The Top 10 Most Romantic Things To Do By Yourself

1. Bake yourself some cookies.
(I mean your favourite cookies.) Decorate a shoebox and line it with tin foil. Put all your cookies inside and hide them in your room so that no one can find them. Or go to your local candy store and pick all your absolute favourite chocolates. Eat them all yourself!

2. Take a bubble bath!
Take a long indulgent soak in some smell-good suds. I always put more than the directions tell me to! If it says pour one cupful into running water, I put three! If you're allowed to shave your legs, do that! Or get some cucumber slices, put them over your eyes and relax!

3. Go on a hike or prayer walk at sunrise or sunset!
Around my house, I have a trail that leads back about a mile to a waterfall. I love to get a backpack with water and snacks and hike to it. Or sometimes I'll set out with a friend or by myself and just pray the whole walk. When i try to sit at home and pray i normally get fidgety and can't concentrate. This way i can be moving and yet still fully concentrating on God. Sunrise is a hard one for me, but i never regret doing it! Sunset is always stunning!

4. Plan a picnic in the park.
And take your dog! If you don't have a dog, borrow one from a neighbour. Get yourself a big wicker basket and pack a sandwich, drink, dessert, and a big blanket to sit on (preferably red and white checkered, it just looks cuter) and go outside! We spend so much of our life indoors looking at man-made inventions like TV or the Internet. There is so much beauty outside, so take a good look around! Eat very slowly. Enjoy each bite!

5. Fire in the fireplace with a good book.
Lay some pillows from your couch or your bed down in front of the fireplace. Prop yourself up so you can see, and read by the light of the fire. The three-hour duraflame logs are perfect for this. If you finish your book just enjoy the fire.

6. Pick yourself a bunch of flowers.
(not the ones your mom has planted in the backyard! go find some wild ones.) Get a vase and fill your room with them. Take special time to smell each one and thank God that he created it! Think of it as God giving you flowers!

7. Have a matinee and ice cream day.
Save your money for a Saturday afternoon and go see a movie BY YOURSELF! Most people can't do that. I absolutely love going to movies alone. Then treat yourself to an extra large ice cream cone. Take a walk and eat it remembering your favourite parts of the movie.

8. Hit the bookstore, plus coffee.
Hopefully you have a Barnes and Noble or Borders bookstore around you somewhere. Get yourself a hot drink; find a book that interests you an a big cozy chair. Spend a few hours reading. You don't have to finish it. Or you could just get five or six magazines and look through them.

9. Make yourself a gourmet dinner.
You might have to save your money for this one... look through a cookbook or go on the internet and find recipes for an appetizer, main course, and dessert (not macaroni and cheese!) Try something you've never made before (that's the fun of it!) go to the grocery store and get all the necessary ingredients and test your culinary skills. Then set your place at the table very fancy using a tablecloth, light a candle and put on some beautiful music. bon appetit!

10. Take a walk in the rain (umbrella optional).
The next time it rains, go outside and walk in it. Take a long stroll! Enjoy it, catch some drops in your mouth and jump in some puddles. Sing your favourite song under your breath or at the top of your lungs (if you feel so brave and providing no one can hear you!)

~ Happy Valentine's Day! ~

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!!

2008-01-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

We had a noche buena, as tradition continues ;)

Went to Global Fun yesterday, it's a carnival beside the Mall of Asia. Eh, too lazy to upload pics for now...

Ta-ta.

Blow the Candles~

2007-12-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

I turned a Sweeeet Sixteen yesterday :)

Had a retro-themed party, which was planned at the 11th hour. I mean really, last minute =x

What a way to spend Christmas Day....

2007-12-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

Cyrill, Jazzelle, and I made like Spidey and scaled a rocky wall at SM Southmall's SouthWall... :)

It was my first time :) the guys there were cool and we were briefed on what to do...
The first wall was easy, but got no motivation to reach the top of the 2nd wall, and in the end, only Jazzelle did it =D the 3rd wall's basically for experts so we didn't do it, plus, we only paid 50 pesos each for two climbs... cheap eh?? 50 pesos is equivalent to almost $2 in Brunei!!!! O_O

We ate in McDonald's after that.

Ohhhh, and before that I also bought Relient K's latest album, Five Score and Seven Years Ago!
Me is sooo happeee.... XD

At last, after waiting for several months... :D

Wishing everyone a...

2007-12-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

Just thought i'd make this Christmas card. Yeah, the ornaments in the background's from our Christmas tree... i took it last dec 2006 tho. Just remembered to finally make use of it ;) Oh, i've just downloaded heaps of font packs from dafont.com, thus the pretty Coca-Cola Christmas and handwriting-type font ^___^ and brushesss from Cy, which she got from her friend...

Off now. Enjoy!

a random day in my life...

2007-12-12T01:55:00.000+08:00

I awoke to the tantalizing aroma of Indo Mee Goreng... yummm.

I decided to dodge taking a bath today... no plans of going out anyway.

I changed my mind... I need a shower! you never know..

I was pleased to see mom leave for a few hours out..

I practically spent the whole afternoon in front of the laptop...

I watched some TV as well..

Where's mom?? It's 7.30pm and I'm hungry! *raids the fridge for left-overs*

Mom and dad comes home bringing some flowers (for me?? no. it was for our house.) and tells me to get ready if I wanted to follow them to aunt Simone's (Davyson's mom) house...

Arrived in her house. It's big and spacey! Uncle Anton and his wife Popy, Jenny, Mag, Jaz, kuya Jay soon follows after..

Aunt Simone's husband (i forgot his name) greets us and they pop a DVD in for a Brazilian Evangelistic/Christian concert experience... wow!

I had brought my Bible and just realized we weren't gonna have Bible study, but rather a video presentation...

9.15pm - Jen, Mag, and Jaz left early... (they left me! boohoo..)

Had a chat with Davyson.. haha that was like, the first time I saw him soo talkative!

10.15pm - home sweet home..

Youth Day Out

2007-12-11T22:43:00.001+08:00

Last sunday. 8.30am to 6.30pm - great fun...

Among us (including me) were Jen, Mag, Melvin, Jaz, Jason, Leong, Goh, Yong, Nosa, Osaze, Davyson, Kala, Chibuzo, Elsa, Ginny, our supervisors kuya Jay, bro. Chris and bro. Lawrence....

8.15am : i overslept! 3 alarms couldnt wake me conscious. mag, jen, and melvin waited for me to get dressed..
8.30am : picked up Ginny. straight to wisma yakin to assemble and meet the other youths.
9.00am : on the road to Bandar.. 3 cars convoy! picked up jason's friend Leong and jen's 2 friends, Goh and Yong along the way..
11.00am : arrived at the Empire Hotel and Country Club... bro. Chris and Lawrence is taking us bowling! Like me, it was the first time for most of us so I was pree excited. We got into groups of 4 - I was with Nosa, Kala, and Ginny. My first roll was a gutter (or what I call "longkang!") ball. Lol. I did get a strike about once or twice tho! It was reallyy fun. In the end, Davyson and I got the highest scores - both 92 points. But overall my group got higher scores than his! Haha.

I seriously wanna go bowling again. When are they gonna put up bowling centres in KB???

Anyways, we were supposed to go lepak around Empire but time wasn't at our side so we headed straight for lunch at the Millenium restaurant in SupaSave. Originally, we had planned to chow at Excapade Sushi but
1) it was too expensive
2) some may not like Japanese food (esp. Nosa and Osaze!)
3) booking, booking, booking
4) did i mention it was too expensive?

I took a video of Kala in the kijang on the way to the restaurant cuz she was yapping away with different accents.. it was hilarious! But click here to watch the other one which was at the resto where we were asking Kala to do it again.
Food at the Millenium resto was served as a buffet. Hey, at least there was a sushi platter! Nosa's friend met us there. Gosh, she's so tall and thin.. I wonder if she models?

So soon after lunch we found ourselves at The Mall a.k.a. the Mole, where I think the guys went to play pool/billiards/snooker (what's the difference!?) while the gurls went... u guessed it - SHOPPINGGGG! for about a couple of hours (ouch! feet ache) then we all went home.

Plans of catching a movie and a forest trek at Bukit Shahbandar weren't carried out. Oh well..

We were back at KB before sunset.

According to Nosa; Osaze and I looked like we were watching a movie. But we had Twisties and instead of p0pcorn ;p

*kisses* and good-byes for you readers!

I almost forgot i had a blog.

2007-12-06T18:52:00.000+08:00

Okay, okay... Joyce has been bugging me to blog. so here! heheh the truth is, i have been deprived of a pc in like, months since the church laptop was transferred from my care to sumi's. what about your own desktop pc at home, you ask? well, it's still lying dormant in the dining room, i soo cant wait to get rid of it and have some cash in exchange =) in the meantime, i've been goin to internet cafes about once a week just to check my email inboxes and friend networkings and stuff. i didn't wanna spend those times in blogging!

At least i'm up and blogging now, with my dad's new laptop! FINALLYY. he came home with it yesterday. i've never sighed a huge sigh of relief. my internet-cum-online-ing-deprived days are over!!

But wait, i don't seem that much in a celebratory mood for that reason. maybe it's because, in the past few months i've learned to be content and actually found out i can survive without going online within a few hours. i have been broken-free of those chains! i had my eyes thank me for their resting vacation (apart from watching tv, arrgh!) in short, i passed the online-addiction test!

Now THAT'S a cause for celebration.

Topic change! :

i'm leavin for philly on the 15th. oh and about going to Johor Bahru for the youth camp... it didn't pull through. am sad, but that's alright. unless Jesus comes back, there's still a next year!

i am soo excited about going to visit the Doulos ship again! according to its website, mvdoulos.org, after visiting Brunei last 1-8 Nov (i shall document my 2nd time experience soon), it dry-docked in Batangas (that's somewhere south of Manila) for 3 weeks and then began for Manila on the 29th of Nov... it'll be there till the 26th of Dec! (my b-day?) yay so that means i could still get my hand on more books and stuff.. (like taking pics with some of the hott crew!) yes Shee Wai, i promise to recharge my camera batteries this time...

Getting used to Vista...

My desktop... i loveee the sidebar feature! and the new GUIs are amazing!

The window-switching is genius! as well as the taskbar window previews :)

Uhh, got to run now. later!

Blow me away...

2007-09-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

Massive strong winds last night. Trees collapsed (or at least decapitated... i saw a headless coconut tree) some signs and fences... and there's this house made of wood that's completely destroyed... omgsh.. i used to always pass by that house whenever i walked home from school.. the men there are creepy but yeah... haha.

You know.. i find it very sad that i'm not able to blog regularly as i'd like... things are still pretty hectic around here... got good news tho.. i get to design the cover for my school's magazine/yearbook this year!! Who0o0o! I shall showcase them later.. apart from that, since i'm in the magazine committee, i have to do a whole load of other stuff (mostly design), my eyes are getting tired from staring at the pc screen often.. i feel stressed. Projects due too... D-maths done, mrs. "Ringgit" (code name) was ratting on me again...grrr.

"Where's your project?? You haven't submitted!"
"I already have. Ginny submitted it to you few days ago... we're in a group." (soberrrr! haha)

Then, after presenting it in front of the class (it was a powerpoint presentation), mrs. Ringgit was like, "Well, I hope you really contributed to the work, not only Ginny doing everything."

Oh, come on! In my group, Wani, Shee Wai, and I really did most of the work, if not all! 'Cuz Ginny was really busy with her science/explomaths thingy, so she only checked on our work. Urghh, we could've told her that, but we chose not to. In the many times she tries to prick on me, I remain silent or answer politely.

"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger."
- Proverbs 15:1

i see silver...

2007-09-09T18:09:00.000+08:00

For those who were wondering what I was up to last July 20th - 31st back in Philippines... click these links to the YouTube videos I found... I was there for both events!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=p6h21W0eNao

http://youtube.com/watch?v=fsttTpQlejw

Oh, and on a quick note, I got to meet up with Kamille! For a couple of hours... her school was just near my bro's computer shop so yeah... 'twas great, saw the rest of her fam afterwards... but it's sad we forgot to take a photo together hehe...

Outside my bro's new comp shop, "Unlimited Imaginations"...

I also got a chance to help around there for a couple of days ^___^
lots of customers... mostly students.. like i mentioned, it was near Kamille's school campus so yeah...

Week with the JB youths =D

2007-08-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

Because pictures echo thousands of words, here are pictures of the 2nd time the JB youth came - with 4 new people; Crystaline's siblings [Cheryline and (adopted) Daniel D.], and pianists Joanne and another Daniel M.

So this is what happened during the 2nd week of the 2nd term June holidays =)

Jon sharing on closet prayer. Haha... Sam's foot...

We had an afternoon of fun and games and Kala invited her friends, Jenise and Claudia to come since Jenise's house was nearby.

Joanne and Crystal rehearsing their dance, "Lead Me to the Cross"...

Daniel D, Crystaline, Kala.

Sam putting eye make-up on her bro, Sebas. LOL.

Lots of laughs...

After Sebas' session... it was AWESOME!

Workshops/rehearsals at Swiss hotel...

Luvv Cheryline's outfit... =)

Rockin' for the Most High...

Sebas teaching our Jason drums...

Lol it looks like Daniel D. was tapping Sebas on the head...

Kacau ehh si Jason JB ani... lol

Haha! signboards... at Jerudong Park.

Kala, Supna, and Gana da Man...

Crystal cracking open a chocolate egg in uncle Chris' house..

LOL the picture that sparked a lot of controversy... (view this pic's comments on Joanne's profile to find out why...)

Farewell for ate Sheila after Encounter night!

w/ Crystaline, Cheryline, and the two Daniels... =)

That's all folks!

Filler!

2007-07-30T08:57:00.000+08:00

Heyyyy.... i'm in Philly now actually... arrived june 20th... and in a couple of hours ima leave for the airport to fly back to Brunei.... wow time flies so fast!! I really can't type what's been happening for the past couple of months.... sooo CRAZY like a rollercoaster ride... well i'll end here first. i shall upload pics in the next post...

Who am i?

2007-07-30T08:51:00.000+08:00

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth 
Would care to know my name, 
Would care to feel my hurt? 
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart? 

Not because of who I am;
But because of what You've done. 
Not because of what I've done;
But because of who You are... 

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours, I am Yours...

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again? 
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me? 

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear 
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours.

BUSY AS A BEE….

2007-06-19T14:21:00.000+08:00

Key events:

Two thursday nights ago I got nothing to do during the p&w practice at Swiss (I finished doing the slides) so I followed Jascinta, Jason Brunei (or we call him Jason Milk/Jason Pun/Pun-pun) and Jason JB (a.k.a. Kicap/Kookies/Ghost Clown... etc so many nicknames for him) to BSRC to watch Gana play in the football match. It was great although I didn't pay attention much cuz I was busy listening to my music lol but in the end his team won anyway by 3 - nil I think!

Then on Saturday after yoof fellowship (don't need to explain ze details of the complications) we held a barbecue for ate Sheila my bum cuz she's leaving!! Well technically she's transferring to Bandar so yeah... she's gonna be in the BTN Bandar branch since she'll be working in her dream school - the Expression School of Music (aunt Lily's school!) seriously man... that's one of the greatest music schools in Brunei... maybe even the best! Hehe but before that she'll be having her vacation in Phils from June 21st then she'll be coming back next month. So yeah.. we had a LOT of fun that night... the games only started I think at 10pm... and we played till 12.30am lol... food, games and then some crazy dancing till sweaty and tired. We even recorded a video where we tickled the ever-so-ticklish Jason JB…. CLICK HERE TO GO WATCH IT IN YOUTUBE!! (If that doesn’t work, type “lovelifelight” (that’s my username) in the youtube search bar and click on the video named “Tickle Jason” ß or simply typing that in the youtube search bar also can….)
Sheila made this collage wif her fone...

BTW, exams finally ended that Saturday as well… the 2^nd term hols have BEGUN!! Who0o0o0o!!!!

Next day Sunday after church service I wanted to go to Bandar with ptr. Ramesh and his fam so I followed lar around evening. We slept overnight at Suresh's house since he just came back from London. They've got a nice big house such that Jason JB and I had fun miscalling and texting each other just for the sake of kacau-ing (disturbing/teasing/playing) with each other. Haha man, I checked Jason's credit and he still had A LOT so I used his fone to text "I LOVE YOU" messages to Jascinta, Jennifer, Melvin and even Osaze (although she was the only one who didn't respond at all haha) LOL Jason waz like, "Aiyah, I commit suicide if like that la," hehe cuz I was prank texting a lot. But he was okay with it hehe we had heaps of laughs. Next day Monday afternoon we went to Hypermart at the Centrepoint to do some groceries with aunty Lina (ptr. Ramesh went to visit someone at the hospital I think) and OMG! Can't tell you how much it was eventful haha I'm too tired to explain everything now maybe nexttime la... it’s one story I will never forget and I'm still giggling about it… xP

Hehe well that night again Jason invited me to sleep in ptr. Ramesh’s house since it was the hols anyway but I decided not to since I just came back from an overnight stay in Bandar, and I don’t want to go off again, my parents might think I don’t wanna stay at home anymore lol.

Tuesday morning we all had breakfast together at a restaurant in Wisma Yakin before checking out some carpets to fix in on our new BTN center (over at 1^st floor Wisma Yakin as well) !!!!

Fixing the carpet with Jen... hehe timer shot when Jason Pun jumped in... =P

Me wif ze 2 Jasons... see that head over the window there... ahah that was little Sonia cupping her hands and peeking in...

I am soooo ecstatic about the new place, I just feel so… blessed!!

Anyways in the afternoon, Shee Wai, Wani, Ginny and I had planned beforehand that we would meet in Wani’z house so I went with Ginny… Shee Wai however didn’t turn out due to her transport not coming lmao!
I think I spent the whole afternoon sitting in front of Wani’z laptop, but she was still soo kind in allowing me to take full advantage of her high-speed wireless network at her house. I certainly went crazy downloading songs!! Haha Wani and Ginny were moaning about how all I did was have my butt stuck to the chair and my eyes staring at the laptop screen the whole time they played on the dance mat and watched a movie!! Ei sorry… pasensya na gurlz… hehehehe…

That night I attended Bible study… very nice lesson it was about personalizing verses… like I chose 1 Peter 2:9 and read it in a way that it was for me (and in reality it really is that’s why it’s important we personalize it) It was great… but I thought Jason Pun and Jason JB were coming coz Pun-pun kept on asking me if I was goin… cheh he dint go also…only Gana went… coz they were occupied with our center at Wisma Yakin fixing the carpets… anyways after the Bible study we went to the center to help as well… oh and Ptr. Ramesh and ze 2 Jasons stayed back after we all left… anyways Jason Pun txted me that night saying that he saw wif his own eyes the “dirty things” (?) and he saw a ghost as well reflected on the window… whoa and ptr. sensed a lady ghost staring at them… hehe I practically stayed up late chatting with Pun-pun asking him to tell me what else happened and that I had assumed they would stay at the centre that night… but nahh they didn’t.. lol I joked to to him how it was “sayang your first night together!!” with the other Jason I mean… hahahaha… Gana said it… “Couple’s first night”… LOL!

Well Wednesday I think we all spent the whole afternoon in the center preparing everything so we could already use the place for the prayer meeting that night… it all went smoothly thank God la… then I stayed in pastorz house that night… and the next day Thursday, the 2 Jasons and I practically spent the whole day in front of the computer chatting/webcamming/audio-ing lol… funny la… that night I can’t really remember what happened… but I did slept the night at home again cuz I didn’t bring my towel so how to shower yeah? Plus the next day Friday, the 2 Jasons, Jenny, and I was brought by ptr. Ramesh to help prepare the hall of a vocational school in Seria cuz it was his brother’s wedding dinner on Saturday night… so yeah… whoa tiring man… haha the school was actually locked when we got there so guess what… we actually went to the principal’s home in the Beverly Hills of Mumong and personally requested that he open up the school hall hehehe… so yeah we went back in the afternoon… oh! Also I had accidentally slit my thumb the night before so I experienced lymph nodes in my big toe that day la… ‘twas very interesting when I realized it… oozing at the biology of my body… science stream students if you have no idea what “lymph nodes” or “lymphocytes” are then you are in big trouble with mr. Rodman… hehe nahh kiddingg… anyways that night at the center the girls and I practiced “Best Friend” and “We Can Make a Difference” again - we were gonna perform it at the wedding dinner… so yeah it went well and I slept once again at pastor’z house that night…

Saturday was definitely a very busy day… I went home at lunch to get ready for yoof fellowship at 3.30 then it was straight to the wedding dinner reception at Seria… and may I say it was a very successful and well-organized event… but I was DEAD TIRED at the end of it and I snoozed the moment I reached bed…

Ahhh… Sunday morning service was a bit weird I might say… haha… I mean our drummer and bassist weren’t available so yeah… just imagine how p&w sounded like lol… at least a gained a higher appreciation for the drums and bass guitar hehehe… guess what my outer skirt also fell while in the middle of dancing lol! Okay so I might be wearing long black slacks under but it still was hilarious to see how the skirt fell suddenly!!!

Oh!! You wouldn’t believe what happened in the afternoon then… I got into a hard wrestling match with Jason JB again, LMAO!!!! Man, I have to say, it was painful but fun!! Hahaha I still giggle at the stunts that happened…aarrghh… I’ve got bruises on my arms and legs now… at least it’s proof to show ptr. Crystal (Jason JB’s youth pastor in JB) what Jason’s been doing to me then!! Muahahahahaha… but hey, I also did leave a “tattoo” on his chest… I have sharp nails la…

Well then finally that night ptr. Ramesh brought Jason JB, Sheila, Sumi, Sonia and I to WYWY late after we did some more adjustments to our BTN center… you know why?!?

YOU’LL FIND OUT THE BIG NEWS IN THE NEXT POST……

Wow...

2007-06-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

It's been crazy.

Okay I just went blank and forgot what i wanted to blog about.

Ok I do remember one thing... church service's been on sunday mornings lately... eversince we used Swiss hotel's 2nd floor. Gosh, I'm actually so blessed... not as much hassle in church life like lasttime where we used to scramble everywhere for a place... and Swiss hotel is blessed... they have no idea...
So since church is in the morning, we have TIME in the afternoon! and the last few sundays that time was spent so lavishly... like after youth sunday, we went to Empire hotel with the youths from Johor Bahru, then the next sunday it was OGDC where we watched Spiderman 3, then the next a trip to Jerudong Park with my "yoofies" (what i call them), and last sunday it was back to bandar to see an exhibition (well there are always exhibitions!) at the Mall Cineplex.
I got a 2gb mp4 for what.... 69 BUCKS!!! and hell, it looks a lot like an ipod nano i got fooled the first time i saw it lol! Here are some pics of it:

Even gadgets can be vain. xD

I DON'T WANNA LOSE IT THIS TIME CUZ MY PREVIOUS MP4 (the black one) DROWNED (T.T) i think i forgot to mention it, but last camp at march, i didn't realize it was in my pocket when i jumped in the pool to complete the scavenger hunt. Argghh! Up to now i'm still trying to shake the water out of it... so yeah.

Scoop on Jerudong Park:
I didn't realize that going there was somewhat depressing. I mean... it's so DESOLATE. Abandoned. Some of the rides just... disappeared. Especially Giant Drop and the revolving Sky Tower... two of the rides I always gaze at everytime I pass by Jerudong Park from the highway. Now it's gone, and I've only realized it at the time. *sobz* I had some of the best childhood memories from that place. Walking through the park I just thought of how it was a perfect place to commit suicide. LOL i know that was random, and I'm not suggesting the idea of commiting suicide whatsoever, but yeah.

On a happier note, my yoofies and i rode the Bumper Cars at first, then the Waterlog ride, then back to the bumper cars cuz it was hella fun =D they say i'm psycho at that ride. Hahaha. Of course la... bumper cars are for bumping peeople not just cruising around... you got that JASON PUN?? Hehehe yupyups (n_n)

It's still exam week and it's been A PAIN. 2 more days of tests and I'll be free next week for the much-anticipated 2nd term HOLIDAYS!

Eventful May...

2007-05-30T15:32:00.000+08:00

Hey all! Just droppin by for a quick update... see, it's been like 18 days since the youth concert, and lemme tell ya, it was a huge success! But I guess we couldn't have made an impact like we did if it wasn't for prayer... been praying earnestly for this event... man, i really wouldn't have wanted to be elsewhere that night!! I'd really like to give every little detail 'bout everything that happened, but... i'll try to make this short lol... I don't want to procrastinate blogging about the happenin events this month!

The youth from Johor Bahru were awesome, can't tell you how much i and the others are blessed by them!! 8 of them from came, namely Crystal (who was the youth pastor), Crystaline (Ps. Benedict Rajan's daughter!), Samantha, Krisela (who actually came 2 days after the rest arrived and she's also the youngest, at 14 y/o of age), Sebastian (drummer and full-time youth leader man!), Jonathan (keyboardist), Athens (guitarist) and Jason (the sound system guy, haha). It was a blast havin them here... 5 days ain't enough la... they arrived wednesday, 9th May and the concert was 12th May, so as you can see we only had 2 days of rehearsals together! But those 2 nights spent rehearsing at Swiss hotel were great, it kinda felt like camp lol, 'cause on thursday night KB town experienced black-out, but i think it was only for an hour... but heck, still fun la...

Sunday afternoon after morning service, we all yoofs went to Empire hotel to just jalan-jalan la.. but we didn't really go round the pools and artificial beach 'cause we hung out most of the time at one side... i don't know what's it called but it was actually my first time goin to that particular part.. but there were a LOT of photographers there busy snapping away either at the scenery or a couple of models we saw... haha well you can always find photographers in Empire... of course.. i have photographed quite a number of that place myself ;) anyways, the weather was wonderful... sunny and breezy... we relaxed sitting on the rocks and chattin away... i also went down with some others... it really smelt of salty sea there lol...

After that we went back to KB and had MAKAN at the churchouse... *burp* stuffed myself silly that time... the JB youth really enjoyed the food hehe... then we kinda played a game together, i'm not sure what's it called but in it the winner would slap the arms of the rest of the losers.. lol anyway when i won, i suggested puffing powder on the losers' faces instead so I did, then Samantha pulled out her lipstick in suggestion haha! At this point the boys were desperate to win and John did, so he drew on all our faces with the lipstick!! Haha it was fun but then it was skool the next day so i had to leave early, it was sad coz i wanted to bond with them somemore...

Next day they all left for JB... but guess what!! JASON STAYED BACK. Lol i couldn't believe the news when Sumi informed me on MSN... i was like, "don't tipu la" but she waz serious! He did stay back! I thought that it was great, at least you know, it sorta "eases the hurt" and pain of havin the JB youth leave... so yeah if you get what i mean. Like a souvenir la.. lol

THEN... MORE GREAT NEWS!! The JB youth had really missed Brunei, they've practically fallen in love with it... so they're coming back. I think John, Sebas, the rest of the team will be coming around 2nd week of June, Crystaline would be coming along whenever her dad would come to minister here and she'd being her 2 sibs, 1 sis and 1 bro (who is Malay and adopted!). Then again planning to come around August, for a whole month! I heard they're gonna hold a seminar... so yeah... I’M EXCITED!!!!

I'll post some pics in the next entry...

You Are Invited

2007-05-02T17:16:00.001+08:00

"Made Perfect."
By Three Cord Wonder

The girl you see in the mirror isn't who I see
When I look at you I see reflections of Me
You don't like your face so you paint over My masterpiece
You hide your face, so you hide My face
and fail to believe...

I made you the way that you would be most beautiful
And I planned you way before the universe was born
When you try to change yourself it only makes Me cry,
I don't know why, you try to make better what I made perfect.

You want more attention so you uncover your skin,
just to fit in.
You think boys are the answer,
well, I was a boy once too
and I love you more than they do.

GO DOWNLOAD THIS SONG!!!!!
Get it at http://www.myspace.com/threecordwonder.
The band really made it free and available for download as a means to encourage others to spread God's love, as you can see in the lyrics... we are His masterpieces. Seriously, when I first heard this song I really cried... I hope you too would also get the reality of this message.

This is a Title.

2007-05-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey!

What's been happening lately (as i remember it) :

I went to AAC (Anthony Abell College) in Seria to compete in the badminton tournament... playing doubles with the other Hannah. It reeked though, because the event was all of sudden that teacher asked me to join and I had only practiced the previous friday! Man, Hannah and I were really nervous. We lost to Chung Hwa, of course, they're good and of course their badminton team training helped. Hannah and Auji actually had to take over a singles match that Fairuzah, Jamillah and Lidewena was supposed to play 'coz it turned out that you had to be less than 18yrs of age to play! Actually I knew Fai hadn't turned 18 but as teacher Irwan (yes! I saw tcher Irwan there! My form 1 class and history tcher lasttime! Whoooo! He is so funny.) it's the "Tahun. TAHUUUUN. TA-HUN!" lol and they were born in 1989. Anyways I didn't know about how the boys played in our team coz they competed the next day. Melvin is real good tho, i remember watching him play during the Sports week and he's just really aggressive! I learned a thing or two from him - smashing. I used to criticize him watching him play saying that he's playing badminton like tennis, but then Ginny waz like, "That's a technique, actually, " and I was thinking, WTH? i seriously played tennis waayyy earlier than badminton and when I started hitting shuttlecocks i thought it was always a bad habit to aim it down. And here i was seemingly perfected the "art" of hitting it high and i get slapped in the face with the realization that smashing is the utmost technique in defeating your opponent. D'oh! All in all it was great being with the team. Jamillah drove us to and from AAC! Wei Min likes to tell all sorts of jokes and once showed me a "magic trick" between his and his bro's IC (long story lol!)

We had tie-dyeing at the science club last friday! Dang it waz fun... i wanted to have my tee in green and pink but teacher didn't prepare those colours. Actually, last minute Faris helped prepare the pink dye but it was sooo diluted and watery that i ended up dipping mine in purple and blue, which was fine with me =) so I plan to do more tie-dye projects this coming June hols ;) -- Piccies everyone! Click to enlarge:-

(1) Faris and Naufal spiralling their shirts. Lol my one looks so cacat.
(2) Teacher Rodman preparing the dyes =)
(3) We were all in the secondary science lab.
(4 & 5) Teacher Sheila laying out the white shirts for picture taking.
(6) Finished products drying up behind my house! The 2nd one I did for Ginny ;)

SHEE WAI / ROXAN is BACCKKK IN ST. JOHNNY'S!! Hahaha i had to struggle with the secret of her coming for like, 11 days? And the girls kept on badgering me =x Hehe and today I tried to convince her to join ART lessons since she's so hesitant coz she can't draw lol, and something funny happened! Haha all throughout the lesson man we were mad laughing I couldn't breathe! Well I missed her and it's great to have her back, i can't wait to go sushi excapading with her again!

Haha my mind is all blank now and Hannah Montana's on so I'm gonna go watch it lol.

One thing's for sure, this month of MAY is going to be ONE BUSY MONTH!!!! I have a piano recital to prepare for! Of which I'm gonna play Allegro, Ecossaise in E Flat, Fur Elise, Sonatina 1, Sonatina Op.20 No.1 and Allegro Rondo for my solo pieces plus Steady Eddy, Very Merry Waltz, and Round the Clock for the duets with Sumi!
I'm also gonna get out all my books and study! Study-study month coz I am determined to get good grades for this mid-term!

Ciao~

Te Amo...

2007-04-14T16:40:00.000+08:00

Skool waz great today! But i felt bad about something that happened.. don't need to say nymore... dint have the appetite to eat at lunch, so i just plunked on the couch and watched some tv... Mr. World to be exact.
Aiiieeeee!! I never intended to watch it, thinking that it's gay.... ok well maybe the guys just look metrosexual that's all.. it puts me off a bit... anyway there wasn't anything else to watch so yeah.

In the end, Mr. Spain won the ~~crown~~ trophy... no argument there... i mean if i could study any language it would be Spanish coz it's such a sexy language! 1st runner up... hmmm i think it was Mr. Brazil, followed by Mr. China, no comment there.... and speaking of Brazil, we gots a new classmate, Daviyson, who's from that country lol... i seriously never thought of it coz he doesn't look Brazilian, or it's my mistake if i dunno how Brazilians looked like hehehe. Anyhoo, one day during art lessons i went up to talk to him, quite amusing actually;

Hannah: Which school are you from?
Daviyson: Here.
Hannah: (smiles and trying to control laughter) no, i mean... like... wait, did you just... arrive...?
Daviyson: no, i come from Brazil.
Hannah: this year?
Daivyson: no, last year. i was in st. james but i didn't like it there.
Hannah: *blurts out* But this school is even suckier!!
Daviyson: *blur for awhile, then grins real big*

LOL. That was random. Well it was somethin like that i don't remember the words exactly haha. I just hope he wasn't offended by what i said. i wanted someone to kick me during that moment!

That's all.... i'm just bored. i have lots on my mind but my fingers are killing me.

Toodles~

Sports Day 2007

2007-04-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

Sports day last sat was great fun!! Definitely the best among the rest (??) coz it seemed more organized this year...

I joined badminton (singles) and cheerleading. The former was actually held days before the actual sports day... it was real tiring man... i had to attend for 3 days... it was all held at the dewan bandaran hall... which is in town, which is just a stone throw's away from school... so yeah... jalan-jalan here and there... i first went on tuesday and after waiting for almost the whole afternoon and watching all the senior boys playing, the senior girls were informed to come back the next day coz it was almost evening... drat! Wasted afternoon. I did play the next day... against Wani... and to tell you the truth it sucked... even though i won 21 - 6, we dint really enjoy the game mainly coz we weren't used to all the badminton rules... such as about who's turn it is to serve, whether you should stand at the left or right side of the court according to your score, be it even or odd, and blah-di-blah di blah! Anyways... on thursday, i found it funny for me playing against another Hannah for two reasons:-
1) When the crowd would cheer, "Go0o HANNAH!!" lol get the humour there? It's like you'd think, which Hannah?!?
2) We basically belong to the same team/house, hellooo! Hehe but i guess whoever's the best would represent green house in the semi-finals/finals... it turned out to be the other Hannah, she's good! So we're cool.

This is Fairuzah's cute lil hamster!! n_n

In a nutshell, I guess I'm more of an "amateur" badminton player as you'd say... apparently when I play it with friends, we're more concerned on keeping the shuttlecock up and flying in the air, whereas when you're competing against one another, the rule of thumb is to NOT let the shuttlecock land on your side... bleh... playing it for fun i wouldn't care who's turn it is to serve... you just pick up and serve whenever the shuttlecock is nearest to you.

Moving on.... cheer-cheerleading! Gosh man, we were really last minute. I think if you'd add up our days of practice, it was only 3 days. A week before Sports Day we practiced over at Jezrehl's mom's dance studio... where one of her teachers (teacher Nestor) choreographed the steps for us... hehe it was really "cheerleady" i guess, having recognized it from the movie "Bring it On"... anyway the next few days later we didn't practice when we were supposed to, apparently Rara wanted to change the steps... but at the end we followed through with teacher Nestor's choreography anyway... during the Sports Week (5 days before Sports Day) i was heavily anxious and almost pissed at the fact that we didn't practice... mann... i told God about it and confessed that, because this would be my last year in Brunei, I wanted to make the most of it, including Sports Day which i wanted to be a success and not a suck-up, concerning the progress my houseteam was doing at cheerleading. But ALAS.... we practiced friday afternoon - the day before Sports Day and yes! We completed the whole routine. Then at nighttime we came back to the studio to work on our cheer and intro.

Hehe we had the studio to ourselves, coz Jezrehl's mom drove teacher Nestor to the airport - he was leaving for Philippines that night! So we watched some parts of Bring it On 1 and 3... finally deciding on the intro of Bring it On 1... that cheeky cheer, if you've seen the movie. There was some profanity on so we didn't chant it... incidentally, the sound/volume quality of the music really sucked, i mean there were no speakers/amplifiers around the stadium where we cheered - it was a microphone-to-radio-speaker thing... so yeah. At least the judges wouldn't hear the supposedly-censored words.

The day - Sports Day!
I basically didn't hang around the track where the athletics were bein held coz I was busy making my pom-poms with the other girls and practicing our cheers. For our costume we wore lime-green (which looked cute - i loved it!) around our waists but later tied it as bandana tops since the Yellow house were also wearing cloths around their waist.
The cheerdance competition was scheduled the last event of the day - that is to keep the students/people/audience in the sports complex in til the end since cheerleading's the highlight of Sports Day.... lol clever idea.
Up first was Blue house - moving to the beats of Akon's Smack That. Then it was us~~ GREEEN! It was funn! Next was Yellow house followed by Red house.

Then finally... the moment we've all been waiting for... the RESULTS MAN!! I don't remember 'bout the other houses but GREEN HOUSE achieved 2 gold and 1 silver! The silver was for our cheerleading, and even though we got 2nd we we're definitely ecstatic, it was cool coz after all the anxiety we still felt we had gotten 1st place. Red did a good job though! They got 1st, Yellow got 3rd, whilst Blue got last.

But that wasn't all.... as teacher Rodman announced the OVERALL CHAMPION of Sports Day 2007....

BLUE - 4th place
RED - 3rd place

So it was between GREEN and YELLOW houses...

Teacher Rodman was like, "Ok, so I'll announce which house got 2nd, so then you'll already know which house gets 1st..."

One could sense everyone holding their breaths as he did.

"2nd runner-up is.... YELLOW HOUSE!"

GREEN HOUSE SCREAMED THEIR LUNGS OUT IN ENTHUSIASM.

We were the overall champions, man! And really... i dint expect it. It's like, you first felt your house was stagnant, when it fact it was taking the lead!
Yay... we beat yellow house - by 10 points! Whew! That was a close call!

So yeah... that's it. Sports Day ended around 1.30pm. Went home with teacher Shula, makan-ed at her house; then later went to yoof fellowship at 4.30pm, when I was supposed to go to dear lil KC's solo recital in Expression again... but sadly no transport =( Dang, i wanted to go badly. Was so tired during yoof, we were watching a video on romantic relationships, but my head was literally bobbing up and down from drowsiness... i had to slap myself on the face. I was finally wide awake after the video finished and we did the discussions, which was really eye-opening!

If you love something/someone, let it free.
If it comes back, then it's yours
If it doesn't, then it isn't yours / it was never meant to be.

I already knew that quote from before, and believe me it's true. It's not the end of the world if a person of the opposite sex rejects you, so what, there are other fish in the water! Oh and also, ever seen movies where the girls are pushy and it seemed as if the guy was drifting farther apart? Apparently, that's where the above quote comes in. And guys should be the one after the girl, not vice versa... coz it's just not that way.

...that was some of what we discussed. Cool stuff ;)
All my praise and thanks go to You my Saviour, God and King!! Thanks for being with me and living in me... <3

MOVE, GIVE WAY. GREEEEN HOUSE IS ON THA WAY!!

Celebrate the Victory

2007-04-08T19:31:00.000+08:00

The enemy has been defeated
And death couldn't hold You down
We're gonna lift our voice in victory
We're gonna make Your praises loud.

Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
Shout unto God with a voice of praise!
Shout unto God with a voice of triumph
We lift Your name up
We lift Your name up

This song always overwhelms me; with the His Spirit washing over me and empowering me like electric shocks.

Goes to show that Jesus is alive and because of that satan can no longer hold authority over those who accept Christ.

So forget the decorative eggs and easter bunnies... look into the real meaning of this special occasion.

Happy Easter everyone :)

P.s. It was a combined service with our BSB church this morning at Swiss hotel. I love having services there and we're looking into renting the place almost every Sunday. Ps. Tun's message was awesome! With clips from The Passion of the Christ. God's love is just beyond words...

La Extra-ordinaire....

2007-03-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

Camp was awesome! This year the theme was "EXTRAORDINARY".... and well, let that speak for itself!

I went with Nosa and Osaze... a.k.a. Lah-lah and Oi-oi (long story lol!).... their driver brought us there... lol in a way coz he didn't know where Holiday Lodge Hotel at first, so we skimmed the map of BSB.... the Holiday Lodge Hotel there it said pink 13 in Jalan Jerudong, we seriously couldn't look for it... gaaahhh til finally i turned over the map and there i saw it! Lol it was gay. When we finally reached the place, instead of going into the hotel's parking lot, their driver pulled up at a house beside the hotel instead... well it's more of a real small hut actually and LOL! the irony! Their driver "Eddy" waz like, "Welcome to the Holiday Lodge Hotel!" and Osaze was like, "Well, this is a nice welcoming...." Gila!

Then we registered and got into our rooms... we shared it with another girl called Hannah too! Hehe and it gets confusing so Osaze and Nosa decided to name me "Hannah #1" and she "Hannah #2" hehe. She was nice, the tidiest and most punctual (she wakes up early and leaves before we do!) one out of all of us... anyway we relaxed for awhile before going to the hall for camp briefing... we got assigned into the group ATECOTTI which we have absolutely no idea what it meant... (or means, coz up to now no light bulb over our heads yet). Our leader was Gerald... who, btw, also didn't know what our group name means.... LOL. Then we did our name tags and got all mixed up with our group name... I saw in the paper that aunt Pushpa was holding, it spelt "ATECOTTI" so yeah I wrote that on my nametag, when Oioi told me, "It's ACETOTTI!! Not ATECOTTI" hehe and after arguing for awhile I finally decided to believe her. Then Gerald came along and was like, "Excuse me all! Our group name is ALTETOTTI." Whaaattt~ and before i got to write it down he said, "No wait! Sorry... it's ATECOTTI."

BAHAHAHAHA.

My tag was sooo messy by that point so i had to ask for a new one.

The ~~TRIBESMEN~~ WARRIORS.
I'd like to name the other members in my group... since this blog is an attempt to meticulously archive my life, it'd be nice to look back and recall....
Gerald, Ting (who, after the 1st night moved to our group from Xhosa), Yin, Annie, Victoria, Joan, Kenny, Miko, Shawn, Wenviu, Jerry, Vincent, Nosa, Osaze, including me...

The TRIBES.
The names of the other groups were:
Vikings (funny story 'bout how they get their wives), Spartans, Masai, Mayans, Apache (i thought it was "apathy" at 1st but it can't be lol), Black Foot, Xhosa, Ovinbundu (loved their cheer) and... Kickapoo (HAHA i adore this one! It seemed that they couldn't think of another tribe name).

The SESSIONS.
Ps. Matt of Planetshakers was soooo funny. He mentioned he's been to Malaysia, esp. Sabah and Sarawak and how he finally landed in the middle (Brunei lol). And he can imitate Donald Duck's voice really well!

The ACTIVITIES.
We did a mock AMAZING RACE which was really exciting!

I'll upload the pics later...

I'm blogging, I'm blogging, I'm blogging!

2007-03-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

Whew! Blogger had a break around February so only drafts were allowed. Then this blog had to be reviewed for approval against anti-blogspam. So sorry if the entries came in late.
Ummm I'm not gonna be long so here are ze bulletpoints again :-

Youth camp starts tomorrow! And it's sad cos a lot of my yoofmates aren't goin cos they got work and all. I know Nosa and Osaze's definitely goin, they seriously enjoyed last year! And Jason's soooo available since he already finished form 5 so he has a loonnggg vacation til July I think. Haha I kept asking him last night but he always shrugs, "I dunno, I dunno" and that "all girls going waah... I don't want to go" ah, just for that reason! Not my fault if Gana is offshore and there are not many other boys in our yoofgroup.

Moving on... anyways I reallay wanna bring Kala along... but it's probably too last minute.
Louisa contacted me btw. But in the end I just received an sms from her saying she can't go coz she hasn't finished her computer homework! Say whaaaat~! I think I shall call Sumi laters and ask if she still wants to go and then try to hitch a ride with Nosa and Osaze after asking $70 for the payment cos it seems the church isn't sponsoring us this time =(

It was dad's company's annual dinner again last Sat nite so all the employees of dad's company got a free night's stay at Empire hotel & resort, again :) like last year! Lol I got real restless at the dinner coz there were a few speeches (and a long one at that! and one of them with a funny Scottish accent!) before we got to eat. This orang putih guy sitting beside me said, "There's gonna be a big rush to the buffet table! Everyone's starved!" in that Scottish (i think) accent of his. Lol.

But for this year no DJ Jenny (VJ Paula of channel [V]'s twin sis) for their emcee, and no hired band too! Hahaha I think they're being tipid (tight budget) this year. Anyway it was also announced that Prince Al-Mutahdee became a proud father that night! Princess Sarah just recently gave birth! So yeah. What news. I never even knew that she was preggy 'cept for rumours. A few girls of forms 1 and 2 from my school (Myeka, Maria, Claudia and the other one Roselle I think) performed a dance which was cool. Sheeesh I forgot to ask them to teach me some of their moves. They majordomo DOPE! (ehehe been reading THE CHEETAH GIRLS book so that's some of their slangg.) Then Sunday morning I wanted to eat the Atrium cafe cos they got the BEST breakfast buffet! But it was sad coz dad's company set up a buffet of their own at the Pantai restaurant. The food was okay... but I still preferred the Atrium's. Later I spectated the games and activites they had coz I wasn't in the mood to join (RED ALERT!) 'know what that means...? Means my "RED indian visitor" came to visit me at this time of the month. But seriously, when I woke up that morning, blood was all over the bed! GRABE! Like someone was murdered o somethin. I was spillin'!! But at least I still got to swim. At the larger artificial beach pool for awhile.... It just occured to me. I forget to KAYAK! The KAYAK-ING! *slaps forehead* how could i? But then again it was almost checkout time so we had to ride the buggy or the internal shuttle back to out Lagoon villas and pack our stuff. No chance for some of my photography this time =( sowii. Oh, which reminds me... again that morning after waking up and seeing the bloody sight on the bedspread and then getting ready (my parents already went to the breakfast first) and then I waited for a buggy or shuttle to pick me up outside. A shuttle came and i trudged inside. It was kinda scary coz I was like the only one inside with the driver. And the driver was asking me all sorts of questions like:
"Di mana you sekolah?? Kau anak nombor apa? Apa umur kamu? ..Nama kamu?" and stuff like that and yeah I answered all of them amidst blubbing out, "Wat?", "Huh?!" and "Me..?" Lol. He's creepy and what made it creepier was that coz I was sitting behind him and all I can see was his eyes at the front mirror (is that what's it called? The one inside the front middle of the car?) and I had this kinda feelin of "maannn, I shoulda walked to the main building instead! I forgot there was a shortcut I knew!" Eeeeeek.

Well that's it I guess. After leaving the hotel we went to Bandar and passed by the new Kiulap mall and Hua Ho for groceries. Then to the fish market behind The Mall or "duh MOLE" (what i call it) where I was supposed to wait for Joyce to come but she was busy.

There's still a lot to blog about... finished my first-term exams (will comment on them nexttime)... first term hols are on... there's a chemistry poster competition... Sports day... all this I'll blab about soon.

Go time!

Who doesn't like wedges?

2007-03-04T19:29:00.000+08:00

Wedge heels

AND....

CHEESY WEDGES!!!

Yummy yummy yummy....!

In Loving Memory

2007-02-08T15:31:00.000+08:00

Today is the 8th of February... know what that means? Of course not.
It's Toffee's deathsary... exactly 3 years since she drew her last brreath.

I miss you fat cat. Who knows whether you've passed away from obesity. Later on I plan to go to your grave daddy dug in the garden and bring you flowers... which reminds me... I need to make a new tombstone for your grave. Well, not really a tombstone lahh... I'll use a coupla sticks. Heck, why am I talking to you like this? ...you can hear me, right? Wherever you are...

Oh, and I'd like to give a BIG, fat, belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Tham Shee Wai!

I've always told her that Toffee's deathsary helps me remember her birthday because it's the day after.... bwahahahaha!

"Ohh... so my birthday is like a curse to your cat issit!"

=D

Gettin' Artsy...

2007-01-20T17:57:00.000+08:00

I bought this kind of doll house last year... well it's not really a doll house but.. it's just a lovely wooden Victorian house!

Constructed it w/ Ginny before I left for Philly... upon deciding to paint it this year. But I sooo can't decide on a colour scheme lahh... lol i was thinking of schemes like maybe the groovy Seventies? Perhaps gothic style? Or simply classic victorian.. haha... we were flipping through my dad's old house architecture mags looking for ideas. We tried test painting first tho...

We might make furnitures for the interior... hehehe...

Oh, i also did some scribbling on my old white shoes (the ones i wore in 5th grade) to jazz it up... i'd like to put some ribbons or maybe add sequins...

i LOVE LOVE LOVE how my cousin May decorated this autograph book she bought for me!

Can you see the bikini on the hanger? Cute, eh?

Am also adoring the mp4 player my bro got for me. It isn't an Apple iPod, but i'm happy with it. Thanks kuya...! i'm indebted!

That's all for now. Next week I'll be playing with textiles! I like going to my auntie's tailor shop in town and asking for ze "leftover" materials! Then I bring home and, who knows what possibilities i can make out of them!
Cut cut cut. Fold fold fold. ;)

Unleash your power...

2007-01-11T08:07:00.000+08:00

Am sitting here stuck on the chair and typing this... on a Thursday morning?!?

Hey.... shouldn't you be in school, young laydee?

Nahh, decided to skip. Okay okay, fine...
Class waz cancelled cos of a terrible flood. Or should I say... glorious flood!

Hehehe I went to school and saw Ompong (our janitor) walking towards the gate carrying a sign that said, "NO CLASSES" or something like that. So you could see I was smiling ear to ear... yessss! I got more time to finish my bio homework, seriously.. there was a lot to write... and clarify on my A-maths... But physics... what a heavy load on the eyelids... *yawn*

Well, well, i'm back from d PILIPINAS btw... aaahhh it was sooo fun as usual. It's like, it gets better every year I go home... took a gajillion pictures... bro had to lend me his other memory card... I think we've got like 400-500+ photos in total... i plan to start a photo album... but too lazy wan... i really wanted myphotoalbum.com but they dont "accept signups from YOUR LOCATION..." what, are they racists? Hehe nah... their terms and conditions states that they don't accept signups from countries from which there are currently "abusive activity"... wth... I feel discrimated... anyway... the highlights of my vacation are:

Going to J.A.M. (Jesus and His Music) WITH US... by the JLY youth... it was awesome! Will follow-up more info soon...
My first time to the MALL OF ASIA... and all the other many times I went... lol..
Going to Davao and seeing my cousins from dad's side which has been like, 4 years... I also learned *ahem* a bit of bisaya... ehehehehehehe...
Errr... drinking my first marguerita? It tasted like medicine but the salted lemon totally drowned out ze taste...
Going to Paradise Island in Davao... lol... the water there is crystal clear! and the sand under... it's not just any sand... the shells are special... and you can discover some corals as well! My cousin found a living, breathing starfish... but of course it died soon after... lol... i later found out that they brought it home and displayed it near the waterfall! We also found sea urchins, which my Philam 2nd cousins, Julie and Jilian took home... the strangest was this brain-like thingy my bro found... according to him it was whale boogey.. or something like that. It looked vomitacious to me.
Spending new year's eve back in Manila... hmmm... but it wasn't as noisy and crazy as last year's....
Experiencing the IMAX 3-D theater! We saw T-Rex.... real cool like I waz really in the scene and as if I could touch the things... I WANNA GO AGAIN!!!!!!!
Watching the Pyro Olympix for the 2nd time... but only on the first night... Australia and Poland.... whee... breathtaking! I loved sharing gasps and applauses with the crowds of people behind M.O.A...
Shopping shopping shopping! But still not enough!!

So i think that sums it all up... unless i forgot... my only regret is that i drank my yummylicious Starbucks only once! Hahaha! Does that even matter? It does to me!

THERE BETTER BE STARBUCKS IN BRUNEI! I'M HOOKED!

My suggestion : Replace the Dome with Starbucks... but wait, I haven't tried that yet... hafta give it a chance first...

On school : SUPERMAN* ISN'T TEACHING US ENGLISH THIS YEAR!!! But at least DENNIS RODMAN* is teaching BIO... he makes it soooo interesting... why hasn't MASTER FRANCISKO** retired yet? Kidding... I'm not that mean...

That's it. BIG WISHES for ze new year 2007... I've a ton of goals this year... have gotta set my priorities straight... and MUST. STOP. PROCRASTINATING!! Get enough sleep each night... those are some of my new year resolutions... but they say resolutions never work out.. then i better call it somethin else then... heehe...

I've another personal dream... and all i can say is, buckle up for the ride... this is going to be one extraordinary year... perhaps life-changing for some...

This might also be my LAST YEAR here in Bro0nai. So better make the best of it, ya?

Adios.

*I give code names to teachers to ah, protect their privacy/identities... to st. john's students... y'all must already know who DENNIS RODMAN is... as for SUPERMAN.... well, don't ask me, the boys kept calling him that... lol....
** Rhymes with his real name...

Yay!

2006-12-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

Heyaz...

so as you prolly know i'm in phils. now on vacation... will be leaving for Davao on sat... sad! =(
hahaha but will be back in manila on the 30th to celebrate new year's... then to bro0nai on the 6th..

It waz funn the last few days... last sunday my cousins cy and jazz went to this JAM WITH US concert by JLY's youth... which was awesome!! luvved it. loved the songs... i wonder if they composed it? if not, i wanna know where they get all their music!! got to jump in the mosh pit again... there were these 3 emo boys bein all hyper! and it makes me smile to see them havin fun in God's presence... i'll post up pics later.. here's a video of a moment that time --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRGNagY1lqw

Then on monday we went to.... the MALL OF ASIA! it's huge... i got to see the olympic-sized ice skating rink... occasionaly it sprinkled snow on the skaters which we caught... so yeah... it was great fun... we stayed there until almost 11pm i think? cos it closes that time... but we were just chillin outside wendy's at the outdoor walks... when we saw this male model from HUMAN, with his friends... and lol! i think he was really engrossed in his cellphone when he hit his head on the glass door entrance of wendy's... hilarious! i... um... laughed TOO loud. *blush*

Tuesday.... hmmm eek! i got a memory gap there. prolly cos i have a lot in my mind right now... but i went to SM southmall just now with mom and bro... bought tops from FSO.. seriously! clothes there aren't only cheap, but awesome! i mean, if you like graffiti like me... you should consider shopping there... nevermind designer labels... sooo expensive. lol.

i might meet up with Kamille tomorrow... *winkz*

busy as a bee...

2006-12-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey!!!

lol i've been internet deprived for awhile since the church laptop isnt with me but... there were lots of events taking place... the last sunday in november was youth sunday, which means the sunday service would be run by the youth =p i did the tithes and offering. osaze was the presider. madeline was the praise leader and some of us the backups. ummm.... jason did the drums. and GANA did the preaching! wo0ts! of course ps. ramesh also helped him prepare a sermon. the rest were ushers (which i didnt think was necessary!)

Well, last sunday was our church anniversary at the swiss hotel... which was great! it was full up; i thought we weren't going to be combined with the bandar side... the dancers and i wore our new costumes (yay!).. if you have the hillsong HOPE video then you would recognize it was copied from there... it was fabulous! i didnt take much pictures, so i'll probably have to get the pics from the official photographer/videoman (i think from nanyang) and frm other people... it was really awesome!!

I just got back from town buying new black shoes fer school... NO MORE schoolgirl leathermade lowheels! cos they get ruined after a time... so i bought rubber shoes lol. mom already purchased my schoolbooks for next year... gossshhh~! they are THICK! HOW AM I GOING TO LUG THEM AROUND SCHOOL! ahaha well did i mention that I got into the science stream?? haha makes me feel smart man! (i failed my history btw -- i like studying it, but i dont want to memorize everythin!!) i heard mr. wong resigned... creepy. anyways... gosh i really have to study harder next year... most students who are getting to form 4 would immediately think, "HONEYMOON YEAR!!!" lol i thought that too but mr. wong said that it won't be... coz of new subjects and wider syllabus i guess... instead form 5 would be the honeymoon year.... hehehehe.

I'M LEAVING FOR PHILS IN 4 DAYS. so i gotta go pack now. cheers!

Funday...

2006-11-20T15:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's event was great fun... here are some pictures...

On tha bus...

This is Bea... playing with Angel's cell...

Yep! It was the same place where camp ELEVATE'S games were held (see below)

The pie-eating contest that time.... hahaha

Anyway there were new faces...

Got 3 bouncers leh!

Of course, the all-famous TUG OF WAR.

Bottle fishing...??

Face/body painting...

The works! =D

We've got pierced hearts!

I joined the 3-legged race with Angel... haha we tripped along the way! Angel scratched her knee but I was okay.. it was a laugh...

Lol our BSB branch of BTN ahh... real skilled in organizing stuff like these... what with the Expression "The Dream Begins" concert in Empire... can't wait for the next one...

We went to "duh Mall" after that... waz too tired to shop around really... i was in the food court when i had to buy batteries for the cam... so i decided to "take a short cut" and use the lift... then I was in the upper basement... where the basement parking was.. haha... suddenly these 3 clowns just walked past and acting all "Hi!" like a pundan that I couldn't stop giggling... well i was walking behind them when this car passed by and I thought I saw Amir so I waved. Then my smile dropped as I realized that it wasn't him!! Haizzz.... soo embarrasing... I just hoped that he thought I was one of the clowns since my face was painted *crosses fingers*

Ngahh my eyes are tired so I better stop here...

New hair and nails...

2006-11-18T15:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday....

Got a pedicure in the salon (1st time)... what colour?? BLOOD RED.... muahahaha.... hey I thought I picked up a maroon bottle...

Got my haircut even though I wasn't planning to (at least not this week)

Nothing much new... short up on my shoulders... more layers... trimmed my fringe...

I'm going to Bandar tomorrow for the family funday o something... at the RBA club... hmmm I wonder if that was the same place where we had our sports games last camp ELEVATE... if so... I prefer the beach... hehehe. After that we're gonna jalan-jalan around... I actually miss going to BSB... often wonder what's it like to live there instead of KB...

The night the planet shook... NIGHTS OF FIRE 2006 in Miri

2006-11-18T14:19:00.000+08:00

A (somewhat) brief account of the Planetshakers (the Western Australian band, not the actual planetshakers you hear on the cd) concert last Sept. 5 - 6...

We saw a monkey on the way to Miri...

We checked in Mega hotel... the view from our room...

That lofty building is Imperial / Ngiukee... where according to Sherra that's where the band checked in... no wonder Sherra and her pals opted to stay there too.... haha! stalkers....

So we went to eat first and shop around before going to the indoor stadium at around 6.30-ish... which is an hour prior to the concert starting.... so yeah we got to sit at the 3rd row, stage front, behind Sherra and her pals who hogged the first 2 rows (and again, STALKers...)

I forgot who's the one holding the fone, but that's May on the right....

PHOTO CAPTION :
lady: ...yeah, he replied!
May: Err, can I have my fone back please...

During this time the band was rehearsing and soundchecking so I took advantage of the moment and took a couple of videos of them... here are some pix ;-

Matt Garner came on stage and we all couldnt believe our eyes... he looks different! He looked waayyyy younger in real life... I mean compare my pics with the poster above... is it not a big difference? Well, at least a GOOD big difference...

Anyhoo, he was real funny and always made an effort to adapt to the tongues of ze singlish/malaysians.... saying "LAH" practically at the end of (almost) every sentence... hehehe...

Here's him impersonating a fish while making kissing sounds... (that was because he commented on how we all look lovely tonight and that we should kiss one another... lol!) and that's Pstr. Hii (the malay interpreter) chuckling at his antics...

Another one was when Matt did a little skitty dance and then stepped aside and let pstr. Hii imitate... so he did a bit of a milkshake before saying, "Saya tidak tahu," hahahaha!

Then it was time for some serious jumping in the House of God... after that Matt shared a lil bit of the Word... then... AUTOGRAPHS TIME! =D

I have to say I was quite amused to see girls running up to Mark... I think he was sort of the soundchecker and camcorder guy... we also suspect that he's Matt's younger brother... so funny... one group of girls taking pics with him were quite short that the girl beside him asked to cut his height a bit... haha.. then he laughed and sort of bent his knees and slouched...

Finally it was our turn... a vely dull and boring formal pic... then pstr. Ramesh brought Sammy to him for a picture...

a good one, ey?

Hmm, what else...

Angel, Jenny and I took a pic with Sherra

I didn't bing my Evermore or Phenomena albums so I quickly purchased their latest - PICK IT UP, which is by far their best yet... the songs are infinitely powerful... anyway, I queued up and tried to take a pic of the autographs table where the band was signing... very crowded so I took a chance and shot the cam above everyone's heads... turns out that one of the singers spotted me doing that...

Got to the table! I (acting) nonchalantly slid the album to the first dude - the bassist, when after signing, slid the album next to the drummer... I swiped the cam from my bag and snapped a pic of them both which to my delight, turned out great...
we all agree that the bassist has "the lips" .

Actually when I tried to talk, I was tongue-tied that time... I think they also wanted to chat but hesitated seeing the line... but they did take the time out to chat to the younger kids... Oh, did I mention that I got [the singer who spotted me shooting up the cam earlier]'s email add? Lol I asked him to which he chuckled to himself, "This is the last time..." and I tell ya, I was the most relieved person on earth at that moment.

After the last sign, I took another quick shot of the autographs table. Ok, lemme introduce each member (starting from the first one who signed)

The bassist, the drummer, the singer (whose email I got), another singer, mister Matt Garner, and last but not least, the keyboardist (w/ sandy brown hair)

I went back to where Angel, Jenny, they all were waiting... turns out there were less people crowding around Mark now so I shot a pic of Sherra and Angel taking pics with Mark:-

Joined in with them resulting in crazy pic including an anonymous dude. Next I tried taking pic of Angel and Mark when the cam fell (hey I was juggling a lot of thingz!) triggering gasps from people and an "Ouch" from Mark (LOL!!).

Chatted with Mark....

Hannah: ...what’s your name anyway?
Him: Mark.
Hannah: ok... we're from Brunei btw...
Mark: u mean with that guy? *points to where pstr ramesh was sitting*
Hannah: yeah..
Mark: ...yeah, his lil son Samuel is really cute..
Angel: Do u have email...?
Mark: Oh i don’t have internet. I’m old school *smiles*
Angel: Too bad... Are you still in school?
Mark: Nah, I’m not in school. I’m 20.
Hannah: *thinking fast abt other questions* er, u guys shud go to Brunei too.. its kind of closed but yeah…
Mark: yeah we've been to other places, like Korea... we're flying back to perth after this.. we're tired 'cause we’ve been travelling all around Malaysia..

Hehehe yeah that's all I remember...

The following day at lunch we ate at Giant's... when we spotted Matt and another guy (I think it was the singer) at the supermarket counter buying junkfood...

I attempted a 'papparazzi' and snapped a pic... turned out to be blurred! Arghh!

Moving on... we jalan-jalan after that... I dont exactly remember what I bought except for silver eyeshadow ^____^

So that night the concert was quite the same as the previous, but I am amazed to see soooo many people respond to the altar call... hundreds...

Time to go back...! We dint get a chance for another photo session! Nvm...

The merch (not including the bag) oh and the postcard's absent =p

Overall we had a GRAND time.... ^_____^

I forgot what to blog about...

2006-11-13T16:20:00.000+08:00

Blehhh....

I need soulfood.

Anyways, wow, it was like a hiatus for me for not blogging for how long! Anyways... I'll be off to the tailor soon to get measured for our new dance costume this december 3.

TTYL.

whoooo

2006-09-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

aahhhhh cant type everything that's been going on, but the highlight of the day is... THAT I WENT TO THE PLANETSHAKERS NIGHTS OF FIRE in MIri last week!.....hmmm spastic... im poofed... smitten! took lots of pix n vids... will follow up soon...

Tongues of Fire

2006-08-02T15:23:00.001+08:00

WOW!!!

Lol i havent been blogging for so long, me takut to touch the computer, it's like a h0peless case! anyways im here at an internet cafe if you're wondering. dad said he'd get the new computer after he pays all the bills! that sounds like a long time!

but mannnnnnnn! lots of stuff have been goin on i could write archives and archives of it... so ok... i mostly would like to share an update on my spiritual life...

a few saturdays ago (ok i bet it was on 15th july, happy birthday to sultan..btw) i was up late praying to God in tongues when I heard His Spirit telling me... "Start praying every Sunday in church with the dancers, before the service" and i was like, ok! the next day, however, well let's just say i didn't initiate.. i found it difficult to tell the girls.. i got ashamed that i personally did not spend time with God for a couple of days.. but i finally got myself together and asked for His forgiveness... I told the girls about it and they agreed. The following sunday... he found a place uptairs and started praying... i have to admit i didnt "feel" like praying at the time but heck, this surge of the Holy Spirit came on us and it was just great. I was sooo glad we did it and couldnt wait to do it again.

it was the beginning.
the next wednesday, Angel told me that earlier that day she felt a heavy burden on her to pray for our church. that soon we're gonna have a revival. i wanted to cry cuz i've got the burden for months too, she suggested that the every thursday nights after dance practice, we pray. i agrreed. she asked me if i could fast too. i agreed again. and thought that... it was gonna be my first time fasting.

our first prayer meeting was soo great of course! we prayed straight for one another, for specific people that Angel had heard God's voice say, for sick people, and... our church. our desp

hey gtg times up continue nexxtime.

B-L-E-S-S-E-D

2006-07-22T19:11:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey!!

Wow I am SO BLESSED these past few weeks!

Tito Onie has officially assigned me to take home the church laptop (YAY!) since the p&w rehearsal is always held here so I could just directly prepare the lineup for the Sunday service. Would it be obvious if I mentioned that I'm typing this offline now, while lounging on my bed? Exactly. I've been busy with a lot of things. So much stuff going on that I do not know where to start.

But first off - Debbie~spaghetti came back from S'pore for hols. It was sad cuz we didn't spend much time together while she was here.. but we did went to Panaga Club to see the Ballet (Starlight dance) though... it was great!

Do you know those times when you were just thinking of having something, and then you get it? Well, I gave God $10 and He gives back a hundred! =D it was through my godmother, ninang Naideth, whom I haven't seen for aeons, so as a gift she gave me $100! And what more... she says she still owes me much to make up for the years she hasn't seen me... awww... I missed her daughter... we used to have like, TONS of fun playing....

I went to Audrey/May/Sherra's house last friday for a thanksgiving. Great times; haven't talked to Sherra for so looong, got a chance to catch up on everything! I asked her about the YDM's L.I.F.E. camp that she participated in and she asked me about Acts29's Elevate camp. Oh, and she informed me that Planetshakers are coming again -- this Sept! I'm excited; I must definitely go this time! Must must MUST!

I'VE BEEN HACKED!

2006-06-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

Yes, you read right. Somebody hacked into my photobucket account and deleted all my pix! They left the following message:

LOL!1! U h4v3 b33n
h4x3d by t3h 1337
h4x0r5!!!11!
LOL @ U LIL AZN
GURL

(talk about bad grammar)

At least I have backup on this system. bcfy#$2!^&*(38t8!3by!!8^% hackers =p

Let's pretend that I forgot to type in the subject.

2006-06-22T16:37:00.000+08:00

We had a special guest yesterday night... Pstr. Benedict Rajan of Calvary Charismatic Center, Johor Bahru, Malaysia... I think he specialises in the gifts of healing... very nice and fatherly type who simply loves children...

Anyway, he preached about "Gratitude"... living in thankfulness..
"Gratitude is a God-honoring attitude... "
"Your attitude determines your altitude in Christ.. "
"Gratitude is the pathway to miracles..."
Instead of grumbling because you don't get what you want, be thankful you don't get what you deserve... (when Christ died in our place, for our sins) - Daily Bread

When we were being prayed for to receive the spirit of gratitude, I felt being filled like how water fills a glass and got overwhelmed.. and I realized.. I am IMMEASURABLY blessed... to think that I don't have enough makes me a fool! I mean, having all the essentials in life; food&water, clothes and shelter... I have more than enough, in fact it overflows! I'm well-fed and perfectly normal, with perfectly normal-working organs and blood pumping through my body, who am I to neglect myself and all the things I already have? Once, I even complained that we had too many things in the house, that I wanted to throw some away!

Anyhoo, Later, Madz, Angel, Jenny and I were hanging around at the back while people came up to the front to be prayed for healing. Then Jen's mom called her up to go too so she went. Oh my, while pstr. Ben was praying for her she was shrieking and struggling. Angel and I were thinking that she was being tormented spiritually or something, because the same thing happened during our singing practice last saturday that Melv had to rush her to the hospital, along with Madz and Angel. Witnessing what had happened, I was dumbstruck because I didn't know what to do, except pray. Well, in the end everything turned out alright and Jen was fine.

That wasn't the end of it unfortunately, because near the end of the girls and I performing our special dance number "Soldier" (again), I heard a thud on the floor and turned around to look. Jen had collapsed! Madz and Angel were trying to get her up from her unconsciousness, so yeah. It was scary. I dunno, but I think there's this spiritual battle going on inside of her. But I pray that whatever it is, she will be delivered.

Most of you guys probably didn't know that Jen was diagnosed to having a cyst in her tummy last November, to which she had to undergo surgery. Thank God for the successful operation. She had to refrain from doing anything active for 6 months though.

Nose to the book... time to get engrossed

2006-06-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

I've been reading a LOT of books lately... some Roald Dahl... but most esp. Christian literature which I borrow from the churchouse library... here's a list of the books I've read (some just this year, some old like last year) followed by their authors, unless I forgot the names (not in order though):

Extravagant Worship - Darlene Zschech*

Understanding God - Sunday Adelaja*

The Man That God Will Use - Sunday Adelaja (The title says it all!!)

When You Can't Live and Yet You Can't Die - Tatyana Galushko (sorry not sure of the name)

Seven Steps to Judging Prophecy - Kenneth Hagin (important for us to distinguish between false and genuine prophets)

A Handbook on Holy Spirit Baptism - Don Basham (your questions [concerning the Holy Spirit] answered)

HEAVEN IS SO REAL! - Choo Thomas* (Jesus' End-time book, and my first wake-up call)

A Divine Revelation of Hell - Mary K. Baxter (horrifying! =O I cried twice from the despair and misery of it all! Let's make sure we won't go to that place when we die!)

Priceless Anointing - Paul Ang

You Personal Encourager - Selwyn Hughes

The Whole World is Waiting For You - Sunday Adelaja

Strongman's His Name... What's His Game?

There is a Miracle in Your Storm - Tony A.A. Marioghae

I Kissed Dating Goodbye - Joshua Harris

Mirror Mirror - Kara Powell and Kendall Payne* (for the girlz out there!)

Books I want and have yet to read:

The Jesus you Never Knew - Sunday Adelaja

Life and Death in the Power of the Tongue - Sunday Adelaja

Confessions of a Happy Christian - Zig Ziglar

Concerning Spiritual Gifts - Kenneth Hagin

Understanding the Prophetic Realm - Paul Ang

Pastoring Without Tears - Sunday Adelaja

Angels and Demons

The Da Vinci Code

Why I Believe

All of C.S. Lewis' works...

*HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! =D

Oooohh... and I can't wait to see "The Hobbit" soon!!

Today is the 6th of the 6th of the 6th - not a good number...

2006-06-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

Isn't it frustrating that while in the middle of watching a good show, the screen goes blank and the dreaded words "Services currently unavailable" pop up? Especially when you least expect it or, being apprehensive, don't want it to happen at any time!

Rawr... it makes me wanna throw pillows at the TV set. If that didn't work, I'd climb onto the roof of the house and tilt the satellite dish.
While the latter is too ridiculous... I think I'll stick to the more conventional approach - switch the decoder off, wait for a long 5 minutes, then turn it on again. Unfortunately I usually don't have my patience reserved for this type of situation so what better than to trudge toward the cubical object known as the "television" and shak -- bah, the heck with that.

*sigh*... The downsides of Astro.

A peek at my journal....

2006-05-25T18:22:00.000+08:00

Whilst in the midst of my own world
You called out to me
So loud, so clear.
Made me stop in my tracks
Oblivious to everything around me...

I stood there gazing
Wondering, "What is this?"
So simple a phrase,
yet so strong a meaning..

You said, "I love you, and I always will..."

My head is spinning, my soul ablaze
Could this be true?
He died for me, for you, for all?
Despite our transgressions, through faith and confession...
He makes us His?

Love beyondd reason.

(c) 2006 Hannah P.B.S.

The Basic Difference between Christianity and the world's religions is this...

2006-05-25T17:49:00.000+08:00

As a Hindu I was drowning in a large lake and I did not know how to swim. The religious leaders and gurus came by and gave me lectures on how to swim.

Confucius taught, "You should have followed my teaching and then you would never have fallen,"

Mohammed advised, "Allah wills whatsoever he wills."

Buddha came by and said, "It's all an illusion in the mind, change your mind and you will change the problem."

Krishna came along and said, "It's your karma that you have fallen into the lake. You deserve it."

Then Jesus Christ came. He did not give a lecture or some good advice. He said, "I have come to seek and to save those who are lost," and He came right into the lake and lifted me out of it and changed my life and put a new song in my heart.

The song writer captured my sentiment when he wrote;

"From sinking sand He lifted me,
with tender hands He lifted me,
From shades of night to plains of light,
Oh praise His name, He lifted me."

I now understand the expression of the Psalmist when he wrote:

I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

[Psalm 40:1-3 NIV]

Christianity is not a religion. It's a way of life. It's a relationship with God.

"Christianity is not legalism. It is rather a love story." - Pastor Sunday Adelaja

Religion is standing around the cross. Christianity is getting on the cross.

Making up for loss time....

2006-05-25T15:45:00.000+08:00

The tongue is an amazing tool of the human body, regardless of its small size. Having said that, according to the Bible, the tongue can be like the tiny spark that would eventually create a forest fire. What comes out of one's mouth can either lift up a person's spirits or tear down another's. What you say can be the difference between life and death. Remember the story of the first ever twin brothers - Jacob and Esau. Esau despised and gave up his birthright just to temporarily satisfy his hunger at that moment, saying, "What good is the birthright to me?". What a loss!

Well, what I am trying to say here is that I'm really grateful for my parents. Many times I've felt underappreciated and overlooked but their encouraging words despite my many failings touched me such that i was in tears last lunch =)

God gave me a little miracle last Friday. The day before, my english teacher asked me if I would like to present an impromptu speech for the next day in the Speakers Forum.
I accepted.

However, when I woke up the nest morning, it came to me. I realized how I didn't have the slightest idea of talking about "emotions". But I tried not to panic.

I walked to school around 7.30am for my Malay remedial class. *shrugs shoulders* It was a blurr 'cause even my teacher didn't attend to me. Since the Speakers Forum I was to attend didn't start 'til 10.30am, I went back home to relax, and tell God about my anxieties.

Now this is my favourite part. Being at the classroom waiting for our teacher to show us a video about a teen's world were spent mostly groaning to Ginny, Grace and Hannah about my speech.
What is taking teacher so long to set up the projector? I thought. I didn't realize that there was a blackout going on! Lol... to which teacher announced that every room in the school was out of power except the staffroom and that our last resort was to proceed to the canteen. So we assembled ourselves there (the music class and speakers forum was merged btw).
Unfortunately, just as we were settled in and starting the activity...

pitter. patter. pitter. patter.

....Rain drops on the roof.

Then a huge downpour of water such that Grace, who was speaking at that moment, had to literally shout in order to be heard. Hahahaha teacher eventually called off the event 'til next Friday and I was overjoyed. My skirt was soaking wet from the merciless rain but who cares! At least now I got time to review and look into the topic.

Oooohh and guess what. It was cancelled again this Friday due to coming-of-exams. Haha!

On a more recent event, I've been hanging out with Shee Wai a lot lately, we go to the new library at the Pandan 8 lagoon park. Lol, I know what you're thinkin.

Of all the other cool places... you choose to hang out at the LIBRARY?!?

Hehe no, really. We see bunches of students from other schools go there too. And not just to chitchat or whateva, but hey, we like to study in groups! Man, some couples read together too. There's a cyber cafe too, but it's not open yet.

Anyway, it was cool, once I needed some fresh air so I dragged Shee Wai and her "uncle" (ask her) who is actually just her 19-year-old cousin to the lagoon side. Gosh, it's been awhile since I've gone there.... or not. Maybe I just haven't seen the other side of the lagoon, which has fountains. I used to go to that place occasionally, in the past year. In it is situated a majestic mosque, a playground, a skatepark, the lagoon of course (btw I heard a crocodile ripped the leg of a fisherman there) and the newly-built library. It's in the heart of, what we call the "Beverly Hills" of Brunei (or just KB), because of the mansion-festooned land. My personal faves - the large pink house with what I describe as having "marshmallow-twist pillars and walnut terraces", and the cosy-looking wooden mahogany Canadian house.
Fantastic!

Gotta go, the finale of American Idol is on now ^__^

P.S. I almost forgot to mention, ANGEL'S BACCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! from a couple of weeks ago. Man, was I ecstatic! =D

Ahhhh I'm sucha bad blogger I haven't updated in AEONS!

2006-05-10T15:59:00.000+08:00

Lemme think back on what's been happening...

I went to Expression Music's mega-concert last 30th April in the Empire theatre... actually I thought I was going to be in the audience but then my mom suddenly informed me, "You're going to usher,"

USHER!! I cried. (Not in a way I would if I saw the artist though)

I wouldn't be able to watch the show then!

Hah but it was alright in the end, quite fun actually. I ushered at the left side of the theatre with Jascintha, tita Sheila, Brice, and Victor. Man, we stationed at our positions around 6.30 or 7pm I think (after we ate backstage), and the people just came pouring in! I thought, why do they all have to be on time? lol 'cause some people just breezed past us, thinking that they know their seats very well, but after some time came back to us to clarify. But others were really nice though, and may I say, a tad bit excited (like me =D).

The concert was amazing of course! I took a ton of pics. I couldn't stand too long in my heels though! Ouch! It was like the first time I ever wore heels just standing all night but anyway after the interval I could no longer take it so I sat on this booth/counter where we put all our stuff. Brice, Joanne (13 y/o who is also an usher, right side) and I just chatted there while soaking in the musical atmosphere.

The view from where we sat.

"The Ushers."

So yeah, 'twas a great night. I loved the delightful "meow" opera song and... OMGSH I recognized the ending part... they used the intro from Hillsong's GOD HE REIGNS album/DVD! You know when the spotlight was on Tulele and he goes, "Great is the Lord...." well of course they had to modify the lyrics. But the dance steps were exactly the same! I got it on video, yay!

On our way back to KB, we stopped by Seria to eat in WYWY (the adults' decision). It was so late I crashed to bed around 1 or 2am and went to school lethargicly bug-eyed-jellyfishy the next day.

Bullets.... shooooot!

I was in my school's science quiz last thurs... didn't win but at least got into the semi-finals!

"... Name two deficiency diseases..." I hantam-hamtam and put AIDS and STD. When
being marked, Mr. Ting goes, "Wahhh... steaddyy oh!" LOL! I didn't know!
Anyhoo, Ginny's team won as champions, whoooo!

Mommy left for Phils. 2 tuesdays ago for a convention. And just this morning dad went offshore 'til sunday so I'll be staying over at the churchhouse 'til dad (and mom) comes back.

Did I mention that I started playing Neopets again, about a month ago? Yep, I got in the Neo-craze again! I was just wondering how neopets will be like after a few years since I first started playing. So I joined again... my.. it is still fascinating! I got myself a pet JubJub and the Wocky species. I'll show them off later on... but right now I have to send them to the NeoLodge for prolly a week's getaway... since I won't be able to feed them anytime this week.

Tcher. Lily hosted a thanksgiving dinner last sunday at the Exp. school for all those who have helped in the concert so were invited to come. We travelled to BSB after church (cos it finishes around 5pm)... whew haven't eaten so I thought, the food better be worth this trip... heh but the moment we arrived, I saw JayTee and Cecelia so I didn't fawn over the food too much ("don't talk with yer mouth full")... haha after eating we pondered to a corridor, didn't know what to do so I whipped the camera out and suggested we take piccies!! LOL but after a few takes I saw the dreaded words on the LCD screen...

"Change the batteries."

NOOOO! You should've seen how desperate we were to take more pix so I asked dad for money then we dragged tcher. Gesta (adult company hehe) over to Hotmart to get our hands on
some fresh new batteries.

I had a good time! ;)

Now SEE..! I postponed my multimedia thing with tcher. Shula this afternoon to tomorrow's... so I could update and, in front of her, pack my stuff for the churchhouse.
I also got the chance to go to the computer lab just now, and managed to take advantage of the speed and upload 'Revolution' to my music player =)

Gotta jet! I wanna clean the house before I leave too!

P.S. Megs, if you're reading this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Today's special 'cause you're THIRTEEN! Stay sweet darls!

I know I haven't been updating much, but there's one thing I can promise...

2006-04-19T16:30:00.000+08:00

Well, my dad's getting a new computer (finally! The pc i'm using now is incredibly slow! that's one reason why I don't blog often... hey at least my patience was stretched over the time) and I plan to sort out the files I want to discard and those I want to keep so I could transfer them to the new pc. After that I'll have to download certain programs such as an antivirus, spybot, ad-aware, etc.. so as to prevent what this pc has suffered ;)

And of course! Mozilla Firefox!

" 'Internet Explorer users can be as much as 21 times more likely to end up with a spyware-infected PC than people who go online with Mozilla's Firefox browser,' academic researchers from Microsoft's backyard said in a recently published paper," reports Gregg Keizer from TechWeb.com

I'm telling you, if it wasn't for my bro's installation of MF, I would've never been able to browse the web, needless to say blog. Because IE is so slow and virus-prone, it now serves as the forbidden program for me...

Lastly... I'll be designing and coding a new layout... I already have a specific theme in my mind... one that kinda expresses what I've been feeling... =D

Hooray!! Jesus is ALIVE! He overcame death after literally going through hell for us, to give us hope of a new life! He stomped on satan's face and took the key of authority!
This is amazing news because if Jesus wasn't resurrected, Christianity and all that comes with it would be a lie. People wouldn't have hope of being spiritually resurrected after physical death either... but it's all GOOD! ^__^

*click*

Last Easter Sunday, two guys (pastor Christer and Tobias) that our leaders met during their trip to the convention in Ukraine came to minister to us. Lol what I found funny is that they always wore cowboy attire so I assumed they were American. But I later found out that they were Swedish (or is it Scandinavian?) and the whole cowboy shebang was just part or their church theme. Check out their site at http://kingdomcenter.org if you are curious to learn more...

So anyway it was awesome =D One of them performed two of their songs... one countryish and the other what they call "Kingdom Rock"....yeah... "BYE-BYE TA RELIGION! SO LOOOOONNGGGG!" .... that was the main message that Pastor Christer talked about. You know, methods may change in establishing the Kingdom of God on earth, but the message remains the same.

It was my first time to be in our BSB branch church's new sunday service venue, which is in i-Lotus... wow whatta pretty place! So cosy and comfy, and definitely better than st. George's parish hall!

I'm planning to go to Expression Music's mega concert in the Empire Theater this end of the month... so that will be cool. Anyone thinking of going too?

That's all for now.
Go time.

Let's visit.... the Simpsons!

2006-04-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

Someone actually built The Simpsons' home in St. Morang, Victoria, Australia!

Let's go inside!

Hmmm.... catchy... ;)

Ah, the famous couch. Where almost anything happens...

I don't recall seeing a fireplace in their show?

Anyway, let's head to the dining room...

I love the kitchen...

Baby Maggie's throne...

Our tour is limited here.

TTFN! ^___^

"...so get off your "ath" let's do some math. math, math, math..."

2006-03-31T16:29:00.000+08:00

Okay I have to blog before I delay again.

Things've been going pretty well... 'cept for the fact that I have failed 4 subjects; commerce, geo, history, and malay in the 1st term... am i upset? Of course i am. This is actually the 1st time i failed many subjects at the same time.. i was quite shocked to hear i failed geo, cuz even though i hate geo and how extraordinarily bo0oring it is, i've always achieved good marks at it.

Oh well. Can do better nexttime ;)

What I am really proud of is... that I've aced math!
Yipeee!
From a big fat zero to practically a 65, what an improvement! I've never had a credit in math for so long! Hehe and now I'm aiming for distinction. Tuition is really working. I'm liking math. I'm thanking God for helping me get through this cuz I remember just wanting to give up last year after failing countless math tests. I thought my brain was most undeveloped..

Some bad news though. Getting 60+ in my english is not good. How can I get so moody that morning? Absolutely nothing was coming out of my head during composition writing. It's so frustrating. Tcher. Ped was clearly disappointed (at least that's what I thought) and it was my comprehension that saved me.

Tcher Matilda and tcher Ped were both talking to each other about how excellent a student i was last year. I found that ironic.
I find myself writing exceptionally well in class but in exams i blank out. I wonder whether this has anything to do with my perfectionism. I get so keen on writing spotlessly that it takes time.
It's difficult to write when I don't get inspired. Aargh so frustrating when that happens! I miss just beginning to write with a simple idea and then sploosh! the floodgates open and a myriad of ideas come out that i had to write rather rapidly.

Oh no... improving at math and deteriorating in writing...
does this mean that I am becoming more of a logical mind than a creative individual?

Nooooo.... I can't let that happen! Never!

Okay change of subject.

daddy has gone to europe last monday. To attend a biiig christian convention in Ukraine with the other church leaders. Lucky duck. My parents get to travel widely around the world while I get to only experience Asia. South East Asia, to be specific =p

word from Ginny is that she already got me hillsong united's United We Stand album! I can't wait to get my hands on it. I heard Take it All's good. Now all I have to do is sit patiently for Gin to arrive from KL. Next week.

I've run out of things to talk about. (Ok, I still have a lot but i change my mind)

Cute pic before I go!

Elevate~~ Always Fly High...

2006-03-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

Acts29's Destiny camp!

This time we were accomodated at a hotel. I know what you're thinking... a room to ourselves? Awesome! This is our view; you can see the stadium and the ICC ^__^

^-- Pastor Jayme! He is sooooo cool. And soooo verryyy anointed.

Crazy games :: pie-eating contest!

Joyce and Jellyphine: Oh my...
Pstr. Jayme: Me..?? Youu....!? aahh mee?
Boy: *stares at pstr. Jayme*
Javon: *goes crazy*

Madz, me, Angie, Carrie, Jenny, and Ijeoma!

Lol Javon, San, and Jam (not sure of the other girl) entertaining us during dinner...

Osaze doing Javon's hair! =D

Yay I've always wanted to see Joyce do that in real-life! w00ts! Go Joyce!!

Awww... Derek, Angie, and Madz... nice pic, eh?

Upside-down?! Tsk..tsk.. Angel! ;p

It was really sad when we had ta leave early... we so badly wanted to attend the last session! Haha well anyway we thought we were gonna leave at 10am sunday morning but then during breakfast pstr. Ramesh came at about 9am and everyone was like, what, leaving now? It's only 9! Lol so yeah! Everyone scrambled to get pics, contacts, autographs, and all that! I wasn't able to get all unfortunately.

We went back to our rooms to get our luggages and stuff and somehow we had to get back to D'A to get something. Hehe so then I asked Ijeoma (who was undoubtly the most popular one lol) to play with them =D so when we went up the elevator she went to everyone and was like, "We're staying!" and everyone was like ecstatic! Like jumping and screaming and all that! Lol then Madeline said to Ijeoma, "We have to go," and then Javon was like, "What! You lied to me! I hate you!"
"I hate you too,"
"No, no, no, I love you!"

LMAO! It was hilarious.

Neways here's a group pic. That's only some of them lar... cuz there were 141 youths in total!

I'm glad most of my KB youthmates decided to join the camp.. cuz it started with only 7 of us going... then later our Indian youthmates registered... so maybe about 15 of us... plus 4 from our BSB branch... hehe what was funnny was that I've never like, met or talked with any of the BSB youth... then we got to know one another in camp... hEY JAYTEE! (if you're ever reading this...) teehee...

Camp was just insane as you can see from the pictures above. This year's theme was Elevate - Always Fly High [Isaiah 40:31] so that means different types of eagles as groups! I was in Little Eagles lead by Jana. We're the smartest!! We did crazy games at the RBC track during the afternoons which was really fun... but what I truly looked forward to was the sessions... man...I don't have the vocab to even describe them... but anyway... it was.. incredible!!! Intense, mind-blowing, absolutely AMAZING! God was really moving in that place. With pstr. Jayme's anointing, whooosh! All fall down. I encountered God, I tell ya.

Saturday night (18/3) I could just stay there forever... being in His presence... with other youths in Christ... it was just really inspiring... some would still gape at God's wonder... others would sing a love song to Him...

Jesus, Lover of my soul
Jesus, I will never let You go..
You've taken me from the miry clay
You set my feet upon the Rock
and now I know...

I Love You
I Need You...
though my world may fall, I'll never let You go...
My Saviour
My Closest friend...
I will worship You until the very end...

God's done it again.

He stole my heart.

And I'll never let Him give it back.

We miss you...

2006-03-14T10:28:00.000+08:00

Will be off to youth camp on Friday. I'm pumped! There's nothing like drawing closer to God with other youth for 3 days, where there are no distractions such as schoolwork. I can't wait to eat, sleep, and breathe God!

Only problem is....

ANGELLLL!!!! COME BACK THIS INSTANT!!!! WE WANT YOU TO COME!!!!

Blessings

2006-03-14T10:02:00.000+08:00

You know, staying in the Empire hotel for the 2nd time two weekends ago was great. It was indeed one of the blessings God graciously endowes on His people in this Year of Awesome Power. I have to say though, that I was quite grumpy for no reason at all during that time. It seemed as if the enemy is bogging me down with negative thoughts, saying "You're not good enough... you're not worth it..." and I remember sitting in Pantai restaurant positioned beside the hotel's artificial beach... when I heard His Spirit whisper to me; "My grace is sufficient for you... for My strength is made perfect in weakness.." I rested my eyes from the blinding midday sun and thought about the verse His Spirit reminded me of, and it occured to me that it held great meaning, something deeper.

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
- [2 Corinthians 12:7-10]

"My grace is sufficient for you... for My strength is made perfect in weakness..."
That was God's answer to Paul's pleading of taking out the thorn from his flesh [2 Corinthians 12:9]

Further stuff I've learned :
1) That doesn't necessarily mean God boasts on Himself and uses us to be looked down as weaklings. But rather that in our weakness He aids us and uses us to do extraodinary things for His glory. We stumble and fall and yet God picks us up, wipes the dirt off our faces saying, "Hey, I'll be with you all the way..."

2) It is He who we must rely on for strength. You know we may be able to accomplish a number of things on our own; but some way or the other... things will turn its ugly head to us, and we may not be able to handle it.
That's when God comes into the picture.
We can try to hold our pride and slay the dragon with our 'once, but no longer significant' weapon, but unless we humble ourselves, we will be forever beating around the bush. Sometimes it takes longer to realize. But God would keep calling on us until we take heed. Only then can He supply with His strength and have victory over the storm.

The stay was great, though! My dad had his desire for a digital camera FULFILLED! It was just we were exploring the hotel shops that my dad was thinking of buying a digicam. Then, that night, at the emblem dinner, he won one! It's a Canon Powershot A410. Whooo! Glory2God!

The next morning was Family Day at the beach (real beach lol) and we happened to meet an Australian couple. What started as an explanation of the whole family day cum company dinner shindig turned into something more religious. Yep, they were believers like us! I was ecstatic when they mentioned that they were at the Hillsong concert last year! Must be the live recording of the GOD HE REIGNS album! Gosh, the DVD's amazing! Hehe anyways they were sooo friendly and pleased to hear that there are actually Christians in Bro0o0onai. Hehe.

DJ Jenny Malai Ali (Channel [V] VJ Paula's twin sister) was the emcee the the emblem dinner. She's good at that thing! I also took a picture with her for the 2nd time. Hehe. I wonder if she remembers me from... like 3 years ago in Hong Kong bank's Roadshow =)

Go time.

untitled.

2006-03-08T14:54:00.001+08:00

I want to hideaway...
she beat me up
pulled my hair
scraped me pieced by piece
scoured at for being disrespected
i wanted to die
but life is worth living... if only because of You
the race gets tougher
but You were always there on the sidelines
cheering me on, picking me up
but one thing i know.
i hate consequences
im just numb
left my mouth zipped
and all i can do is use my hands to write this...

Google Videos

2006-03-03T11:31:00.000+08:00

I luvvved surfin at Google videos when i was in Phils... well since my internet connection here is slower I don't do much anymore. Neways! Some of the videos I thought were really amusing... here are the top 3 i remember... go check them out (i recommend right-clicking on the link and open in new tab for firefox users) :

Fall Out Boy home video... "..we're goin down tuuu on a luuuleeeluurahhh...."

The Quest for the Candy Bar

"I want it that waaayyy...."

Who no longer lives in a pineapple under the sea?

2006-02-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

So Nickelodeon's on a frantic search for Spongebob Squarepants... and I think I've found him...

'One Way' in Japanese!!

2006-02-22T20:13:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa.. people...

...So if you have Hillsong United's LOOK TO YOU album, just pop the DVD in your DVD player, and here are the instructions to view it:

Go to the menu, select "song selection", then select "what the world will never take". As soon as it starts playing, select "menu" on your remote or if you have a pc select "title menu". After this you will need to select the arrow pointing to "Look To You" (under the UNITED heading)... if it turns yellow when you are on it, it means you have done it right and all you have to do is click!!! Yay. If it does not turn yellow, repeat the above-mentioned steps =)

Okay well I have to extend thanks to the [Hillsong_UNITED] Yahoo group, and the 2 people who shared their discovery. I'm not really sure if that video was meant to be hidden, or if they wanted people to find out about it or whatever, or if they just forgot to program the DVD correctly (also judging from the fact there are no subtitles, I mean,,, how can I sing along properly?? Hehe). Anyway, I was engrossed in watching that I forgot about the mee goreng I was cooking! And now I have this soggy mee in front of me. Lol.

!What the Word Will Never Take!

With all I'm holding inside...
with all my hopes and desires..
and all the dreams that I've dreamt...
With all I'm hoping to be..
and all that the world will bring..
and all that fails to compare

You say you want all of me..
I wouldn't have it any other way..

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me... WHOA!
I wanna know... I wanna know You today...
and You're the best thing that has happened to me
and the world will never take.. the world will never take You away...

No-one could ever take You away...

(c) 2004 Matt Crocker, Scott Ligertwood, Marty Sampson / Hillsong Publishing

"The Room"

2006-02-14T13:38:00.000+08:00

I've been wanting to post this article for a couple of years. It's a dream by Joshua Harris, which I oogled in his book, I Kissed Dating Goodbye. Thanks to mr. OJ, I didn't have to type it out =)

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In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Girls I Have Liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match.

A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I Have Betrayed."

The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I Have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed At." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've Yelled at My Brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger," "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped.

I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I Have Listened To," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.

I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?

Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.

"No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

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By Joshua Harris. Orginally published in New Attitude Magazine © Copyright New Attitude 1995. Can also be found in his book, "I Kissed Dating Goodbye".

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2006-02-14T13:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of bloggage! I've been busy, seriously... Form 3 meant [monday - thursday] extra classes in the afternoon.. and I've also begun math tuition yesterday, which'll be every mon and tues every week, right after extra class... I was gonna be loaded with piano lessons after math tuition yesterday, but fortunately it was moved to saturday.. so there's a lot of walking for me... (good thing my place is just a stone's throw away from school) .

And with the Chinese New Year celebrations in the past 2 weeks, no doubt I went Gong-xi-fa-chai-ying with my fam! (should I mention the angpau I'd been getting too?)

Anyway, I just wanna say that... God's really taught me a lot over the past few months... because of my lazy-cum-procrastinating-ness... I wasn't able to write about them all... but I sincerely wish to share them with everyone, for my goal now, on this blog, is to encourage those who have turned their backs on God and to whose passions need to be re-ignited.

Aight, have to go for extra class now!

P.S. Happy Valentines Day, to those who celebrate it! What will I be doing tonight? Hmmm... I'll be hanging in the churchhouse with a few friends and pizza! Lol 'cause my parents will be attending our church's Celebration of Love event... toodles!

A picture's worth a thousand words... is that right?

2006-02-01T12:52:00.000+08:00

Alrighty! What better way to comeback with pictures from my last vacation?

Christmas Eve at our house...

then on my birthday...

our New Year's Eve Noche Buena...

our neighbours waiting for the New Year..

Some of the fireworks that night....

*more to come*

Bloggish

2006-01-30T12:59:00.000+08:00

I'm back, finally!

You might have noticed that I'm using blogger now. It'd be much easier to edit my entries/blog posts... I like DiaryLand but the only glitch is that it doesn't have the wysiwyg editor. So yeah.

Stay tuned!

ZzZzZz....

2005-09-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

September's ending!

Time to wake Green Day up!!

Tidbits!

2005-09-22T02:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Najwa, Sarah, Selly, the internet, Reader's Digest, etc various sources for this stuff!

On his first day, a newcomer to prison heard the other in mates roar with laughter each time one of them called out a number. Mystified by this, he asked his cellmate what was happening. "We know all our jokes so well that, to save time retelling them, we've numbered them," he was told. Thinking he would join in, the newcomer shouted "208." To his amazement, the whole prison shook with laughter. The cellmate wiped tears from his eyes and commented, "We hadn't heard that one before."

Teacher, teacher, I don't care
I can see your underwear
Is it black or is it white?
Oh ma lord it's dynamite!

God gave you:
two hands to hold
two feet to walk
two eyes to see
and two ears to hear.
But why did he give only one heart?
Because he gave the other one to someone for you to find.

East to the sea,
West to the land,
Death to the bitch
that touches my man!

I love him, yes I do
he's for me and not for you
If by any chance you'd take my place,
I'll take my fist and punch ya face!!!

Forget do,
Forget re,
But don't forget me!

3 nails
+ 1 cross
-------------
4-given

Don't 4 get
2 pray
+ 4 me
---------------
10-derly

When I saw you, I was scared to talk to you.
When I talked to you, I was scared to like you.
When I liked you, I was scared to love you.
When I loved you, I was scared to lose you....

Nice eh?
OMG Angel told me that when Sherra went to the Planet Shakers concert in Miri last Sunday night, it was packed with thousands of people! Then since the band liked McDonalds, they treated the audience to a free meal!
WOW. THAT MUST HAVE BEEN AWESOME! =)
SHERRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I ENVY YOU!!!!!! YOU GOT TO GO!!!

xox Hannah.

Matthew 24

2005-09-22T02:14:00.000+08:00

I was just thinking about this chapter, when the disciples came up to Jesus and asked what were the signs of the end of age. This was part of what He replied:

"Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,' and will deceive many. You will hear of wars and rumour of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains..."

Right... that's like exactly what's happening in the world right now... think, 9/11.... SARS... Tsunami disaster... Bird flu... London bombings... the European floods... hurricane katrina in New Orleans.... etc etc!! (I don't watch CNN that much hehehe)

Anyways, waz just thinkin about that... since all these major headlines popping out...

In the last days, God says:
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your old men will dream dreams,
your young men will see visions.
Even on my servants, both men and women,
I will pour out my Spirit in those days.
I will show wonders in the heavens,
and on earth, blood and fire and billows of smoke.
The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood
before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the Lord.
And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved...
[Joel 2:28-32]

*opens eyes*

Hannah xox.

September 22, 2005 at 02:16 AM

Baaaa

2005-09-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

Ba ba black sheep have you any wool? Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full....
I don't get that rhyme!

Haha okay school waz good! Had fun laughing till outta breath...

Tcher Ped: .....Ferdinand MaG(J)ellan --
Hannah: Teacher, I thought it's pronounced Ma[G]ellan..
Tcher Ped: It's Ma[J]ellan
Sarah, Najwa, and I: OOOOHHH....
Sarah and Najwa: SO FUNNY!!!
Tcher Ped: Why, now Vasco da Gama is Vasco Da Gay-ma??
Sarah, Najwa and I: *BURST OUT LAUGHING LIKE RABBIT HYENAS*

****minutes later****

Tcher Ped: Who was the first European to sail around the Cape of Good Hope in 1488?
Hannah: (alone) VASCO DA GAY-MA!!!!!
Tcher Ped: No, it's Bartholomew Diaz... forget about that!

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA that was in History class... hahahaha wat else... In English:

Tcher Ped: ...like when I was small... --wait, I was never small...
*whole class roar in laughter*

HAHAHA u hafta be there to get it..!! I remember a few weeks ago in Science class when Najwa (my sitmate) was secretly listening to my mp3 under her tudong... then like the rock version of 'Baby one more time' by Bowling For Soup came up and she got caught up in her world and started singing... show me how you want it to be... tell me baybeh cos i need to know now ohhhh because.. my loneliness...is killing me... and then Mrs. Vinci, who was teaching, said, "No singing in the class,"

LMAO.

The short lil play we did last Tuesday went well! Haha the boys' skit was real comedic... :

Ieuan (dealer): This watch is..... 35 dollars.
Tan: aww that's so expensive! Can you give a discount?
Ieuan: Hmmm well I'll have to think about that... hold on, I'll ask my brother to confirm... AMENG!!!! COME HERE!!!
*discussing*
Ieuan: Okay, I'll give you a discount............. $34.50!!!
Tan: That's only 50 cents! Gimme more discount
Ieuan: Okay... I have a very VERRRYY special discount........... $34.45!!!
Tan: WHATT!!
Ieuan: Take it or leave it
Tan: I'll leave it! *gets up from seat to leave and begins cursing while Jonathan the sweeper chases him out with a broom*

LOL yeah it was cool! The girls' play was okay... medieval music playing lol... in the end, I went to the front to hold up the sign 'The End' but it turned out the I held it upside down! Ngek. Ok.

THERE'S MORE but I can't remember all of them now....

Change of topic: books~~
Oh so since I wasn't able to go to Planetshakers last Sunday night, I went to Tita Naidz' room and slumped in her bed. Then I saw her bookshelf and began looking through them... I saw.... 'How to be motivated all the time'.... 'How to reach your life goals'... 'Preparing for marriage'... haha nahh. I took out a small thin book titled 'The Spirit-controlled woman' and boy was I glad I did! It was very interesting... about knowing which temperament you are and how you can help yourself with the help of the Holy Spirit.. it's like the 'Solving People's Puzzle' but much detailed for women... but I didn't read it all through of course.. cos of the chapters of marriages and divorce and all that. Anyways the four temperaments are; Martha Melancholic, Polly Phlegmatic, Clara Choleric and Sarah Sanguine... I'm a Martha Melancholic!Cos that's a 'C' as well in Solving People's Puzzle. Oh well...

Next book I read was... 'Teachers and their Private Lives' from my school library heh.... vely interesting I tell yah! Now I'm reading 'Boy' by Roald Dahl...

Okay I'm tired now... blog nexttime!

Numb

2005-09-19T02:27:00.000+08:00

Haha I think I was numb for the last few days. Like when it's appropriate to start panicking and all about the Planetshakers thing, I didn't seem to worry! I was like in a "Yeah, whatever," state.

Okay I have to start from the beginning hehehe.

Last Friday morning after I last blogged I went fo piano lessons with Ginn. So she went first since we're goin to have the same substitue teacher. As I waited with Miriam (or Mary-Ann I dunno) she was talking on the phone with someone and I was laughing my head off something I just thought of. LOL I was trying hard to control my laughter so as to not distract her. And after she put the phone down she hit me (as in not hard or anything but playfully). Haha and then she picked up the phone again to call someone else but it was the answering machine and she said that the man's voice was really nice so she dialled the number again to let me hear. Sure enough, I heard a lovely man's voice saying those usual answering machine stuff. And then after that lovely man's voice came a lovely woman's voice saying, "Hello? Hello?" and I was just smiling at its lovely-ness when I realized it was 4 real! Gahahaha I gave the phone back to Miriam. Heh and I saw Tito Jun teaching a girl to play the violin. I never knew about that so later when he came out I asked him, "You play the -- you teach the violin?" and then he laughed which made me scared a bit and said, "Yeah," and then I was like, "Wow, you know a lot of instruments," and then he was like, "I know the drumz, guitar, piano, organ/keyboard, violin, bass," haha and I just gaped in amazement. He went into his teaching room again and then when he came out again later he told me, "I also know the trumpet," and I laughed. HAHA and then after that I saw MEGAN!! Haha no actually I mean AKMAL!! Lol he was so shy when I kept calling him Megan. Hehe well it was my turn then after Ginny... the substitute teacher is okay, I forgot her name. Then when I was gonna go home na Miriam told me that maybe teacher Cherry should be my substitute so it'll be like, at the same time with Ginny. Haha. I've had a lot of piano teachers already! Well not us much as Ginny's but here is the list:

1. Teacher Lily - (I actually took my first piano lessons with Expression Music Enterprise but had to change to another -that is, Swan School of Music- when teacher Lily got preg with her first baby.)
2. Teacher Rose
3. Teacher Carrie (sometimes as a sub)
4. Teacher _______ ?? I forgot the name! Joel or Noel or something..
5. Teacher _______ I forgot the name of this dude too..!
6. Teacher Cherry
7. Teacher Sheila
8. Teacher M something (the new sub now)
9. Back to teacher Cherry again.

Hehe so yeah I think that's all I can remember. Ginny has an even longer one! Hahaha. Anyways, I think I suck at piano :'( I stopped going for piano lessons March last year and I continued just this last July. So yeah, one year break! I forgot my chords already =( I need to learn them again..

Okay okay enough of that now. Last Saturday evening I suddenly went to Bandar with my parents cos they had to attend some kind of Omegatrend meeting. They left me at St. Georges though (thank God! I'd be bored to death in the meeting) heh well the Bandar group were having their church service.. my first time! Hehe. OMG I SAW teacher Joyce again! She was my Science and English teacher and as well as class teacher in 4th and 5th grade. She was my favourite! Anyways I waited till after the service to talk to her so I went upstairs first.
Awww teacher Lily teaches the youth there haha! It's still young, 5 girls 1 boy then. And she asked me to join for awhile too. Hehe she was gonna give them a test on the book of Job.. JOB! I read that book halfway months ago... so I just did my best to answer. Got 1/10! Lol. It's cool... my gosh, teacher Lily gives money as prizes! 20 bucks for getting all the answers right! I was like, "You should be our youth teacher in KB!" and she laughed. She's like all excited about starting a youth group. She even mentioned a youth band! YOUTH BAND!! Sheet? The KB YOUTH GROUP WAZ SUPPOSED TO START FIRST! Haha I just remembered yesterday when I told the dancers all about that. They freaked, which left me quite surprised cos last year when I overheard it was Tito Jun's idea to start a youth band I reported it to the dancers and they were all, "What?? Aiyooooo!" lmao and now it's like they completely changed and actually would love the idea to start one. Ummm... it didn't.. happen.
Nvm. Back now... I giggled when I saw the expressions on the Bandar youth's faces. Like I said, teacher Lily was all worked up and excited and said, "You can sing, dance, play the instruments, and you'll have a special number every two months and we can invite more youths to join and we'll have lots of activities!" HAHA picture me slumping. The dancers and I would like that. I mean, we have youth fellowship every 2 weeks but I don't think it's that active...
okay more on that later.. anyhoo, after the youth fellowship (in Bandar, that is) we went back downstairs... after the service I approached teacher Joyce and her eyes got all big ("Can see the whites all round" as said by Roald Dahl. Lol) and I was like, "Remember me?" then she was all yeah and we talked for awhile. I didn't know she goes to this church so I asked her and she said she's been going for a few months. Then I asked her if she was still teaching but she ain't anymore. She stays in Bandar then. Then she shared to me a verse from 1st Peter and I was all surprised.... I mean, last I'd known, she'd been a buddhist. And now......?? I'm so happy for her she's my sister in Christ na! and we hugged and exchanged numbers... she told me she'd check on me to see if I was reading my Bible... haha. Actually, I've been reading a lot of it in the hols. I started reading it all over last July-August and now I'm in Exodus (old testament) and Acts (new testament). So yeah hehe for those who cared.

I got to talk with Anna... aww it was too bad they didn't perform their little dance... haha well I forgot the rest she said as I was conversing with Ate Vangie at the same time.. (???).. I think Anna said she needs me to teach them something? Huh. I dunno.

The whole Saturday night was great actually (despite me craving the chocolate bar I left in the car - hey that rhymes! =D) I couldn't wait to see EJ again who just came back from vacation in Phils... Still cute!! I took pix and videos of her and Eden playing..

EJ's dad took me to the place where the meeting my parents went to was held. One of the Omegatrend ladies there asked my parents if they were going to Miri the next day and my dad said, "No, only the youth," and I was like, "The dancers can't come...." and then the woman's husband was like, "Oh you mean the Planetshakers concert? My son's going there," and the woman was like, "Yes, you should go, Matt Garner himself is very dynamic! You can stay at our place for the night if you want," ...hehe. But then dad sorta found out that school was reopening Monday... I said 'sorta' cos I thought he already knew! And he wouldn't lemme go anymore! AWWWW SHUCKS! Mom pleaded with me! So dad was like, "We'll see," .
Heh. "We'll see's" are more likely to be NO. But then I thought, "Nvm." ...

SO I DIDN'T GET TO GO =(

Shattered anticipation!

The dancers too were really really really sorry they couldn't go...at least Madeline was very reassuring "Nexttime..." and I thought, "YEAH! I could e-mail them to come tour Malaysia (esp. Miri) more often or 'regularly'..." and I told Tita Rascel about it.
So even when we didn't get to go, we kept our hopes high and expected something else BETTER... I told Angel, "Let's frame our tickets and hang them on our wall," talk about desperation!

Okay, they may come to my house for practice tonight... gonna practice for our church anniversary next month!
Hehehe well the church's laptop is here... I switched it on just now but found out that they issued a password already! *slaps forehead* I tried many many many times to get in but couldn't haha. And just 5 minutes ago Tito Dennis passed by and I asked him about the password and he said that his wife knows so yeah I asked if he could ask her and then tell me when he gets home...
Then, after he left, pstr. Ramesh came, with pasalubong from Philippines! Hehe.

Anyways, school was okay today. Had fun in English class... teacher Ped gave us assignment on writing a play and we'll perform it tomorrow... ngek. I'm the script-writer and.. I have no idea what to write! Jasmine was like ratting out on me.

Okay go time. May go to Bandar on Thursday naman... whoops I hear the loo calling.

"Oi! Long time no see!!....."

More than....

2005-09-13T23:28:00.001+08:00

Now that's settled, what am I gonna do during the hols?

Owh I wanna get my bike fixed. It's been months since I last cycled... OH that time when Shee Wai called me up and we cycled together (we were planning to since we found out we live quite near each other) and we like, went around town.... and when we went into St. John's... there were these wunks hanging around there... and one of them called out, "Hey Shee Wai! Your dress so big!" so I was like thinking, Shee Wai's not wearing a dress. But anyway, she was really quiet, which is not usually her. Then we got back to my house and we exchanged songs for our mp3 and then Shee Wai wanted to take me to the hospital so we cycled there. Hahaha. She brought me to the mortuary. So quiet... while we were pedaling through, the chains on my bike suddenly broke! It was soo freaky. We were gonna use the gate on the other end, but it was closed so we had to go back again. Hahaha I had to walk beside my bike. We stopped by the vendo in the hospital first to get drinks. Then on our way back to my house.... Shee Wai told me about what the dude in school said... ohhhh now I get it! I'm not saying it here hehe. Not good. Right, Shee Wai?? They so mean!

Okay okay I HAVE EXCITING NEWS. Some of you must've known already. That's right.
PLANETSHAKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I practically screamed when Angel told me there were going to be in Miri. I mean I remember Pam telling me that Hillsong United's coming but I didn't believe her cos I think they're on tour in Japan now but oh well she actually meant Planetshakers! So yay! If I can't go to Hillsong United's annual encounterfest in Aussie then this is prolly the closest to it.
And what's more? Angel even has the tickets! Our dear Sherra gave us!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SHERRA!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE OUR ANGEL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahahaha. Teehee you have to calm the SOT me down.

It's going to be on the 18th and 19th this month. Haha I know that's like when school reopens already! But I don't care! Just miss school a couple of days is otay!! Daddy allowed me to go. WHO WANTS TO COME!! I'm not sure but maybe, just maybe, one ticket admits 3 people? I dunno! Sherra! Angel! Help me!
Hehehe well just a few days ago I wasn't sure where we would stay in Miri.... cos it would start at 7.30pm so when the concert's finished we wouldn't be able to go home cos the immigration would be closed, say, about 10pm.
Daddy said we need an adult to accompany us (the dancers and I) and I said Tita Rascel wants to come so yeah I've told her about over YM she got excited (lol) she's helping me aight!!

Kay I gtg run some errands (naks!) otherwise my excitement will turn to disappointment!
OMG! I just remembered holiday homework! Hahaha.

Planet Shakers Info:
Sunday 18th September 2005
Monday 19th September 2005
Mega Hotel Ballroom, Miri.
7.30pm
Free Admission
www.planetshakers.com.my

That's what it says on the ticket!

HAHAHA you know what I just realized?? They're using the Mega Hotel Ballroom!! BWAHAHAHA it's funny. Cos last 12-14th August our church had a convention in Miri and it was held in the Mega Hotel too but then most of us freaked when we found out we wouldn't be using the ballroom! We used... section A of the Mega Hall! LOL. It was so hilarious you prolly don't get it. Nvm. Hopefully PS wouldn't be shifted to section A too! Teehee jesh kiddin. Anyways August was the most awesome month so far for me. But I don't think the fun has ended yet!

Later.
Hannah xox

P.S. This is sooo cool. Now Friendster enables html!!! Whoooooooooooo!

In a nutshell... as if

2005-09-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

Hey. I just realized I forgot to present a brief intro about myself. Okay, I'm Hannah (like you dint know that already), haha well you can just call me Banana... I'm a real bookworm! And according to Ginn a magazine-worm too! Seriously... I can go to her house and then get attracted to one and just sit down and read it... and she sometimes get annoyed that I read and we wouldn't get to play... hehe.. soreee. You can find me engrossed in a book at my school library at times.

What else? Oh... I'm like addicted to going online.... dunno why but it's just like something to do! I exercise my fingers both on the piano keys AND the computer keyboard keys. Lol.
For those of you who know about the 4 Temperaments thing... I'm a C & I. So yeah... I think a lot... still wondering why I suck at math... but anyways I'm quiet yes, I like to just sit back and observe sometimes. I'm not a high C, though, just so you know.

Teehee I LOVE having fun!! I like to fool around! I absolutely enjoy LAUGHING! I remember I used to pinch and slap people's butts (hey Page started it and I somehow got hooked on it) like, a few years ago... But not anymo haha I lost the urge to do it... thankfully! I was in the school choir for... almost 2 years... *sigh* I miss those times. Singing everywhere. Stopped in 6th grade cos of PSR. But I don't wanna join the choir no mores now.

I'm quite serious in my studies... I get sleepy in school though. I daydream a lot.... MATH CLASS IS SPARED. But why do I still fail??? I feel dumb. Feel dumb not being able to pass the 5 math topic tests. *cries*. Actually, I do good in class. But I slack when it comes to tests.... somebody help me! I feel like my brain is so un-developed in the mathematical area!

I have lots of good friends that had to go abroad... Eden & Daniel, two of my childhood friends left for the Middle East many years ago... then there's Dianna who went to Indonesia. Nike and Karina, went back to Nigeria a couple of years ago as well as Kamille (millions of memories!) and Kathy! Gosh I miss them so much.... just recently it was my dear Debbie. Hehehe. Study in Singapore ah... so lucky. Congrats on your new iPod shuffle and hope to see you on MTV Get Spotted!

It's been over a year since my loveable cat died!
And now I visit her grave in our garden occasionally.

Another thing, I LUV ART. I'm BIG on it! Drawing, painting, writing.... blah blah even music is a form of art.

Okay, I hate smoke... I'm possibly a passive smoker *eeeks!*... hopefully not! I get pissed around smoke. Makes my head hurt. Another thing I hate is horoscope and Harry Potter! No offense to those who are mad about him... me no like magic arts. Me not superstitious. And me not depend on those stupid forwarding chain letters that swears you'd die if you don't freakin forward it... BELIEVE ME, I'VE DELETED A LOT OF THOSE AND GUESS WHAT?? I'M STILL ALIVE!
Not one to believe in luck.... gimme a break! I don't blame my fortune on luck.
I hate procrastinating. Good news is that I'm not so much of it now! Slowly slipping away from my 'perfectionst' title... sometimes I don't care anymore! I want a new room. Just recently tidied it up from all the clothes lying around but I'm still not satisfied. Oh yeah I'm a clean freak... and again not so much as before... I'm tired of cleaning the whole house and then have it messed up again! But I guess cleaning ain't a one-time event, huh? It's a way of life hahaah. Little by little the speck comes back. Little by little the clutter piles up...
I'm tired of people thinking I'm on a diet... I AM NOT... okay???? I thought picking healthier alternatives would be encouraged... instead you criticize me for not getting that slice of cake? Puh-leeze.
I don't drink sodas no mores. Too fizzy for me.

Ngek I should stop here now. This 'brief' intro turned into a speech already.... yay I'm long-winded!

xox Praise & Grace
[FYI --> Hannah is Hebrew for 'grace' and y'all know my 2nd name is Praise!]